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I've decided to make a new journal. It's time to start over.

I hope this feeling passes. Last night was not something I wanted to take part in for a while, but it is done now and I don't know how long we'll be in silence. Yes me heart hurts. You were a part of me for so long, but I need to let go. I'm going to miss you. I don't know how to live without you... I'm going to try.

Pool, slip 'n slide, friends, probably best night so far.

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I will say goodbye once more.
44 days until I see him again.

I blame myself for getting upset. But first I blame you. My mom thinks I have abandonment issues. Sometimes I think you don't want me anymore. I wish I had more friends. Maybe I'm too needy. I wish you understood how I feel when you leave. This is what you want to do in life. I'm still not over it. I can't do things that will cause me not to feel. ( Read more... )

Who else read Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince and was upset with the events the occurred? I know I was.

My body aches. Sleeping for two hours before having to work ten p.m. to six a.m. then having to get up for work at eight (two hours later) has made me miserable. I will attempt sleep now for I will be working ten to six once more. I needed attention today, but I guess it's my fault more not saying so. Sometimes I need you more than others.

( Decoy reunion show. )