i'm back from germany. not much to tell. not very fun. lots of cold. i'm SO happy to be home.
word.

so now that i've completely fucked up my remaining months with my parents, i somewhat regret all of the things i did that went against their rules. i hate guilt trips. last night was the choir concert, i thought i did okay on my solo... the choir however, couldn't decide what key they were going to sing, so it was all over the place. i go to ( Read more... )

is this how life is supposed to be? a big "fuck you" shoved right in your face ( Read more... )

emotional night. momma has AIDS and is in the hospital. she told me she has a little less than 6 months left.

i don't know what's going on in my life right now, but i'm somewhat sick- still. i've gained some of my weight back and i'm able to stomach most foods. i ate a lot today. i also might be in more trouble than i know... i'll find out tonight when my aunt gets home ( Read more... )

there's something seriously wrong with me. i don't know what, but my body is.. well- bad. i've been vomitting for the past 4 days. i lost a LOT of weight (i currently weigh 122) and i'm sleeping every second i get. i had a doctor's appointment yesterday, and they think it might be deppression/anxiety (sp?) i have a therapy appointment today. i'm ( Read more... )

i got a parking ticket last night for $25. i'm really shaken up about it, it's $25 of gas money that i could have. LAME. my parents are being jerks and no longer assisting me with gas money- i'm all alone. blah. my head hurts, and alas, i'm drinking tonight.

i don't laugh at the face of danger... i kind of get into a fetal position (but not exactly) and start to shake.

i recently found out that an old "friend" has AIDS.
i never slept with him, or did anything sexual- however we did kiss a few times.
i wasn't worried at first, but then my parents started to scare me shitless.
i doubt i have it, but i'm getting tested as soon as i can.
i hate scary things. they just need to go away.
forever.
:(

studying=lame