I feel you in my heart and I don't even know you.

[heres_the_plan]

i don't know what to think.

what the hell is going on and why can't i get control of anything? Does he really care or am I just really paranoid? I think I am going to drive myself crazy, and one day I'll look back and be ashamed of myself at this time in my life

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[scarlet__muse]

Relationships suck...really they do; because no one can ever be straight up or honest with people about either the things they hear, or what they feel.

I've been straight up my whole life...and to me it has helped me figure out what a REAL relationship is...and the fact that I haven't been in a real meaningful relationship because feelings weren't equal from both parties.

It has also helped me figure out who my real friends are. I was straight up to you about things and now certain people won't talk to me. I was straight up to someone else and now she won't speak to me. Honestly I speak what I truly think and yeah it does offend people or hurt people...but if they opened up their eyes they'd see it would help people.

I dunno what I was trying to get across by saying all of that.

Anyway this is what I'm going to leave with saying..until we talk tomorrow haha: Do you truly miss him, or do you miss what you had-the affection and relationship itself?

[heres_the_plan]

i truly miss him.

not a moment has gone by where i haven't wanted to simply see his face. not even for him to love me back - but just to see him.