I just needed to say...

[hereticchick]

I think I'm experiencing what hell must be like and I'm not liking it.

I cry at random intervals throughout the entire day, I desperately want to smoke, I can't stop criticizing myself for the reflection I see in the mirror, and I feel lonely, panicky, and, at times, suicidal.

This really, really sucks and I'm having a hard time handling it by

Comments

[anadamous]

Thank you for talking to us about this. Who can you go see in person to get some support from right now?

[anadamous]

Seriously, is there someone you can call right now? Not many people will be checking LJ today so they won't know to call you.

[tarq]

Keep these posts to show yourself in the future if you ever decide to consider smoking again. This is the leash it has put on you.

This sounds really rough. Take care, Kell-bell.

[spidertea]

hug hug hug hug!!