im stoned, i feel good, people who think escapism is a bad thing are so wrong

well that was relatively new

i drink to this, the end of a shitty year, and the beginning of another shitty year, happy new year fuckers

time to vent frustration, guy friend of mine peter, im not sure he's conscious to what he's doing, but if he is, he's not aware of what it does to me, since i started hangin' with him in highschool, i've had to be there pretty much every time he hooks up with a girl, and for one reason or another have been unable to leave, now this of course puts ( Read more... )

IM BLONDE!!!!!!!

i find myself less and less able to sleep at night on the nights when no substances effect my persona, when im drunk or high, no problem, soon as i lie down im gone, but other nights, like tonight, all i can do is lie awake, i need more to do, i need a second job, in the afternoon, some bullshit thing, like starbucks or advance auto parts or ( Read more... )

the world becomes a whole different place after you've looked to the stars...i admit it right now im pretty drunk and a little high, i know, fuck, i've had way too much to drink, but i don't know, i just can't deal with it alone, i don't think i have the strength to carry on like this without at least some sort of substance to help me along, i have ( Read more... )

this world is harsh and cruel to me, it is time i resigned to watching from the shadows, till the time is right to reveal myself again

it all gets ripped apart this week, hopefully there'll be enough of the pieces to put back together come the weekend, though i'd rather just sleep

why can't we not be sober
i just want to start this over
why can't we sleep forever
i just want to start this over

well, things are sort of on the mend, im glad to know the parents aren't pissed either, maybe they can help us out, keep us out of jail and such, at least that, i'ld like to stay out, though i must admit there's a tiny part of me that says,"dude, how cool would it be to end up in the slammer for a while?" yeah it'd be a bitch when i got back out, ( Read more... )