some random writtings not about anything or anyone in particular. Not finished, just slapped down on some paper yesterday while bored and insomniacial ( Read more... )

that made my day. i checked my grade on the abnormal pysch test that i took this tuesday while i was in my cst100 class and i got an a on it. not only did i get an a, but i got 100 ( Read more... )

( spill )

i have a funny story from today
it wasnt funny for him im sure
but i find it hilarious myself
but that is a story for later
i suppose i just wont tell it
whatever it doesnt even matter

i had a job interview today, joy
my mom was surprised about it
apparently i cant do anything
but its true afterall i suppose

( you shouldnt read this )

i hate being pathetic
i hate being needy
i hate being stupid
i hate being dependant

three for three
four for four
i cant take it anymore
please please slit my throat
to even the score
im done
im dead
stop writting
stop writting
stop writting

feel the shards
glass
just drag
cut
and grip to skin
tiny fingers
reaching within
this flesh
forget this mess
everything
is okay
its not a dream
breathe
fade

its not fair
just give it to me
please
hoenstly
i want it
please
just let me take all of the pain
i can handle it
just let me take it all
please
im begging you
god
please...

This used to be a really honest entry that explained everything I feel. That is why it is not anymore. Don't ask questions. I can't answer them. I don't have answers any longer to anything.

heres to you my best friend
just wanted to say that i miss having you around
im staring at your pictures
and dreaming that i could hold your hand

( anything for you is what you told me // the day that i sat there with you // so i know nothing lasts forever )