wow; that was really interesting. believe it or not i could relate 2 a good bit of it. newho; cheer up & if u don't i'll e-mail u dirty pix 2 make it better ;o) lOl ps- RIP 2 H. (who is that?)
"H" (idk, i hate putting people's names out on the inet, privacy type thing). she is someone special to me. one who i babysat for awhile. probably since she could walk. and ironically, i was going to babysit her for the first time in atleast 5 good months this weekend. but she was hit by a car out here and that explains the helicopters and ambulances and many police cars that i saw/heard a little earlier.
mikayla's real good. she's gaining weight like woah. idk man, shes heavy'er than a mofo. she's a saint. i wanted to show everyone that she got her ears pierced.... and she didnt cry. ^_^
don't worry. nothing's wrong with u baby doll. it's just a part of growin up & gettin older. One day i had those same realizations and it just told me to start over fresh, regardless of the past. forgive, forget, and live on.
oh yes, something is wrong with me. definetly. exclude the parts where i spoke on being nonappreciative about all my oppurtunities. like, i established that already. idk. the more important part of my emotions right now is whats in the 2nd paragraph. this part, especially; i have to take alternative routes to get to a stable point. not the route everyone else takes. i've dissmissed every oppurtunity thrown at me. i cant seem to motivate myself. stop waiting on someone to hold my hand and guide me yet i claim to be an adult.
its a whirl how people relate so closely to you, only in different wording.
girl, i wish i honestly could be sitting next to you listening to you rather than reading that. i read your entries and my jaw leaps at how similar you are to me..
rightnow, you just have to be strong, step up & [sorry if i seem rude], but stop bullshittin. stop doing shit knowing its wrong and stop doing shit without thinking. THINK ma..PLAN..make use of ya time..though its easier said than done; you're in control and mostly everything is at your fingertips, make use, WISE use, come on now. ♥
just thought i should throw this out there cuz after reading what i posted it sortaa seemed this way. but in no way shape or form am i 'downing' you..so dont take it that way.
good. glad some folks can relate to me somewhere. in the least shape or form. nobody ever feels me so that's rare.. or maybe they do but hell, they never tell me.
stop doing shit without thinking. amen. i know it. i stopped thinking and just did whatever. i hate the aftermath. i forget how bad it can be. see, i'm so smart sometimes but other times, i'm just dumb as hell.
& dont worry, i dont think you're downing me. and even if you are, you're entitled to do your own thing & have your own opinions about me, right? ♥
man and its like i do the same shit, hell who doesnt? and we complain later..natural human doings? beats me. just get it all together and stop trying to prove your haters wrong babygirl, prove you to yourself. fuck the outsiders. take all the time you need to get yourself together..dont want no half assed transformation.
Omg, we're so on the same damn page.I feel the same way, and i'm going through the same shit.All I can say is keep your head up, which I seriously need to take my own advice.I got to get my shit together, and prove everyone in my life wrong and show them I can succeed on my own.
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newho; cheer up & if u don't i'll e-mail u dirty pix 2 make it better ;o) lOl
ps- RIP 2 H. (who is that?)
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i'm not down. =/ i'm fine.
"H" (idk, i hate putting people's names out on the inet, privacy type thing). she is someone special to me. one who i babysat for awhile. probably since she could walk. and ironically, i was going to babysit her for the first time in atleast 5 good months this weekend. but she was hit by a car out here and that explains the helicopters and ambulances and many police cars that i saw/heard a little earlier.
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speakin of children---how's lil mama?
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mikayla's real good. she's gaining weight like woah. idk man, shes heavy'er than a mofo. she's a saint. i wanted to show everyone that she got her ears pierced.... and she didnt cry. ^_^
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oh yes, something is wrong with me. definetly. exclude the parts where i spoke on being nonappreciative about all my oppurtunities. like, i established that already. idk. the more important part of my emotions right now is whats in the 2nd paragraph. this part, especially; i have to take alternative routes to get to a stable point. not the route everyone else takes. i've dissmissed every oppurtunity thrown at me. i cant seem to motivate myself. stop waiting on someone to hold my hand and guide me yet i claim to be an adult.
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all i kno, you're in control of yourself. Everything's gonna be alright baby doll
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girl, i wish i honestly could be sitting next to you listening to you rather than reading that. i read your entries and my jaw leaps at how similar you are to me..
rightnow, you just have to be strong, step up & [sorry if i seem rude], but stop bullshittin. stop doing shit knowing its wrong and stop doing shit without thinking. THINK ma..PLAN..make use of ya time..though its easier said than done; you're in control and mostly everything is at your fingertips, make use, WISE use, come on now. ♥
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good. glad some folks can relate to me somewhere. in the least shape or form. nobody ever feels me so that's rare.. or maybe they do but hell, they never tell me.
stop doing shit without thinking. amen. i know it. i stopped thinking and just did whatever. i hate the aftermath. i forget how bad it can be. see, i'm so smart sometimes but other times, i'm just dumb as hell.
& dont worry, i dont think you're downing me. and even if you are, you're entitled to do your own thing & have your own opinions about me, right? ♥
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