Everything feels the same but it feels different too. Hard to explain. Andrea and I are no longer friends. It doesn't bother me and that in itself bothers me. Why don't I care? Jessie and Tyler came home for the weekend and I'd like to spend a day alone with them but it's hard when I still don't have my car back yet. Still no job, but trying to ( Read more... )

My room is my jail cell. i can't ever leave. i didn't do anything wrong this time but i guess i didn't do anything right either.


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"...But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but doesn’t really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope for something good to come along. Something to make you feel connected, to make you feel whole, ( Read more... )

My entries are always depressing and I apologize ( Read more... )

I've made a mistake and I know it ( Read more... )

10 things you want for Christmas:

1. happiness
2. to not fight with my family, to not feel out of place
3. a secure job
4. new clothes
5. to make my parents proud
6. snow
7. money
8. adventures
9. alcohol
10.weed

( The list goes on )

I am extremely unhappy about my eating habits as of late. This needs to change, asap ( Read more... )

I don't think I will be going to school in the Winter.
I'm nervous to break this news to my parents, they are going to rip me apart.

My birthday is in two days.
I'm going to be an legal adult. Time has flown by.

( Life Lately )

"Sometimes I come crashing down inside myself
without anyone noticing. I’m like an ambulance
on two legs, hauling the patient
inside me to last aid
with the wailing cry of a siren
and people think it’s ordinary speech."