Important babble
I really only have one thing to say: never ever ever tell anyone the truth repeatedly. It gets you in so much trouble.
I think about all the times I told people the truth and then someone else tells the person some bullshit lie and they believe them over me so it really just all kind of...sucks for me. I guess lies sound so fantastic they must be true...whereas the truth is boring. That must be it.
Fiona and Kevin, wow what a mess. I never even wanted to be in the middle of that but Fiona didn't know what was going on and she pretty much verbally abused Aro until he gave her my number because apparently she said "Kerry is an awful liar so I'll find out what's going on from her".....hahaha sucked for her because I turned my phone off as I was spending time with Tom. Later on that night we all went out and she pretty much cornered me upstairs in McD's and asked me...and I wouldn't have said anything only she was fucking crying and she was just heart broken and no one was telling her anything. Now my brain said : walk away, walk away, walk away but I sort of went with my heart and just told the damn truth.
Bad bad bad idea
She was delighted and so we went off and I was nice to her and we ate together and stuff. So then Jill decides to tell her a slightly skewed version of the truth. Can we say melodramatic?
End result: apparently I lied. That was strange because well, I was there, I have eyes...
Seriously, I'm done with it. I'm not even going to bother telling anyone anything. Make up your own mind.
For the record:
I am not a liar
I have never been a liar
I do not LIKE liars
case: Lora. She looked me square in the eyes and told me something I knew for a fact was a lie. That hurt more than anything else in the world.
I wouldn't do that to anyone.
I don't use people.
I have talked badly about people but everything I say about someone I will and have said to them. I don't believe in saying things about someone that you wouldn't say to them.
More to the point of what's on my mind:
Why would someone throw away 7 years of friendship? Unless of course they were trying to get out of it in the first place.
Maybe I'm odd but since I tell the damn truth I expect the same courtesy.
I don't have any feelings really to be hurt.
I think St Angelas did a good job in getting rid of any feelings I have.
It also makes me flinch everytime someone touches me or raises an arm.
That doesn't mean I hate you!
Just because I flinch when you touch me, or don't tell you I like you does not mean I hate you. Let's not be dramatic. All it means is that you'll have to keep going to get me that comfortable around you. It's absolutely nothing personal.
If telling the truth is wrong and having a hard time showing your feelings is wrong then maybe I'm not supposed to be friends with you.
I cannot help the way I am and I won't apologize for it.
I'm just sad that you feel that way.