England/colonial!US, noncon shota, I'm going to hell
anonymous
February 16 2010, 04:33:57 UTC
Hope this isn't too specific.
I've seen a lot of consensual shota between America and England, but I crave horrible psychological trauma. I want America to be confused and afraid, I want England to feel endless guilt but still try to rationalize his actions, I want America to feel irrational guilt. Basically I want gut-wrenching agony on both parts and to have the urge to punch England in the dick.
If it's not too much to ask, I also have a few specifications: 1) America grows up to be how he is in canon (cocky, exuberant, has a hero complex, fairly good relationship with England, etc). Whether he chooses to suppress the abuse or simply have the most fucked up outlook on his relationship with England ever is up to you. Perhaps he convinces himself it's not abuse because he's a nation? 2) Canada knew about it. Sometimes it's good to go unnoticed in a household with a child molester, eh? 3) France finds out. Chaos ensues. If you involve Finland or Holland in this I'll love you forever. 4) Bonus if England breaks down at any point. 5)
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Re: Sing Sung Songs [7/?]
anonymous
February 27 2010, 19:38:49 UTC
No problem! I hate to see a good fill languish for lack of intention, especially when it's something unique like this! I run screaming from the average shota fill, but this is just ... very different? In the good way!
Sing Sung Songs [9/?]
anonymous
February 27 2010, 20:44:32 UTC
He’s somehow sitting between France and England, and while he doesn’t mind sitting by France or… England. He’d rather if he could sit by America. Between America and England. But it could not be helped could it? With their relationship now, a “strong bond” based not only on culture, heritage, language, support. The “Special Relationship” that their bosses over the years, decades have had them maintain and strengthen… America wasn’t going to let go of hard work, and England wasn’t one to refuse it either
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Sing Sung Songs [10/?]
anonymous
February 27 2010, 20:47:54 UTC
He replies, though the only drunk England he’s ever taken home, that one he’d ever been with was when France himself had been quite drunk and always instead of going home it meant crazily laughing and running through the streets naked and crashing parties and waking up the next morning in places they don’t recall ever coming to covered in chocolate, barf, liquor, and once telephone cables… that sort of drunk. This crying mess never happened unless America was around and so it was always this crying mess that was America’s responsibility to return home.
Why should that change?
Why was Canada bothered by it?
France can’t form a small knowing smile (a little jealous?) because even if it could be assumed this is it France knows it’s not. Canada
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Sing Sung Songs [11/?]
anonymous
February 27 2010, 20:48:36 UTC
Maybe the alcohol had gone to his head, was causing this outburst, whatever. Canada doesn’t know just that this outburst feels good after holding it in for what seemed to be forever
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Er, lemme try again ANONYMOUS THIS TIME LOL
anonymous
February 27 2010, 21:15:25 UTC
Holy shit, and it's all about to come out into the open, huh?
The whole time I was reading, all I could think was "Poor Canada." You did a really good job of creating a (slightly muted) sense of dread and anxiety from his point of view, by the way.
But, uh, I'm kind of looking forward to enraged Big!Brother!France most, here. THAT should be interesting.
Re: Sing Sung Songs [11/?]
anonymous
March 10 2010, 03:44:47 UTC
Oh wow I just read this fic now and it's so amazing! So heart-wrenching, beautifully written, the way you express their emotions!
America!! ;__; so heartbreaking and painful and sad wahhh. Makes me want to hug him and make everything all-right, make all the bad things go away.
England you twisted bastard! Amazing job you did there author!anon, getting inside his head and how he rationalized it all to himself.
And Canada is awesome, I love the parts from his POV, he's so shy and doesn't speak up for himself much, but I'm glad that he feels a close brotherly bond to America and finally he won't take it anymore!
Please continue, wonderful author!anon. This is so messed up (almost squicked me out, it felt so REAL) and so well-written, the feeling gets across so well, I want to read more!
Re: Sing Sung Songs [11/?]
anonymous
July 15 2010, 16:39:40 UTC
Was there ever more? Please, link me to it. If not, please, write it! Such a powerful fic, creepy and disturbing and excellent in the way it treats this matter! Poor Canada's outburst was fantastic, and I can't wait for France to become Papa Wolf France and kick England's ass to hell. Poor America! I hope he comes to realise the way he's been used and abused...that line about how he always waits for England but England can't wait for him, to grow up, to be able to love and express it as adults do...that broke my heart bad, authoranon. Excellent fill, please, write more
I've seen a lot of consensual shota between America and England, but I crave horrible psychological trauma. I want America to be confused and afraid, I want England to feel endless guilt but still try to rationalize his actions, I want America to feel irrational guilt. Basically I want gut-wrenching agony on both parts and to have the urge to punch England in the dick.
If it's not too much to ask, I also have a few specifications:
1) America grows up to be how he is in canon (cocky, exuberant, has a hero complex, fairly good relationship with England, etc). Whether he chooses to suppress the abuse or simply have the most fucked up outlook on his relationship with England ever is up to you. Perhaps he convinces himself it's not abuse because he's a nation?
2) Canada knew about it. Sometimes it's good to go unnoticed in a household with a child molester, eh?
3) France finds out. Chaos ensues. If you involve Finland or Holland in this I'll love you forever.
4) Bonus if England breaks down at any point.
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Why should that change?
Why was Canada bothered by it?
France can’t form a small knowing smile (a little jealous?) because even if it could be assumed this is it France knows it’s not. Canada ( ... )
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more soon, thank you for reading.
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The whole time I was reading, all I could think was "Poor Canada." You did a really good job of creating a (slightly muted) sense of dread and anxiety from his point of view, by the way.
But, uh, I'm kind of looking forward to enraged Big!Brother!France most, here. THAT should be interesting.
Good grief, you write fast! ♥
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OMFG!!! MOAR PLZ!!! HOT, AMAZING, DEEP, AND SO AWESOME!! SRS, YOU WIN THE INTERNET!!
And just wow, anon, I think you just bought my soul with this fic. <33
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America!! ;__; so heartbreaking and painful and sad wahhh. Makes me want to hug him and make everything all-right, make all the bad things go away.
England you twisted bastard! Amazing job you did there author!anon, getting inside his head and how he rationalized it all to himself.
And Canada is awesome, I love the parts from his POV, he's so shy and doesn't speak up for himself much, but I'm glad that he feels a close brotherly bond to America and finally he won't take it anymore!
Please continue, wonderful author!anon. This is so messed up (almost squicked me out, it felt so REAL) and so well-written, the feeling gets across so well, I want to read more!
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here are the other parts: http://hetalia-kink.livejournal.com/15769.html?thread=46277785#t46277785
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