Jenny where have you been for two days, you havent been online. Anyways workin my ass off, trying to get shit accomplished. It has been rough the only reason I am up is because Miah didnt have keys, so yeah I slept from 430 till 845 and now I am up gota go back to bed though. Peace

I feel as if I can not go on, I feel as if my whole world has crashed down upon me. I can still become a cop however with a possesion charge and a DUI now I do believe that I will never get hired anywhere. As a result I think that I will be done with college again. I am not even sure that I want to live anymore. Life seems so harsh when you are ( Read more... )

wow two whole days and not one person that I talk to has written in their journals I am kinda board its more fun when there is drama, or something to respond to. Well anyways whatever. Tonight at 5:40am Cori is leaving for West Virginia, and I am not quite sure I know how I feel about that. On one hand I am free to do and say and go where I want ( Read more... )

Tonight was a certain sign of satin hating me and the revenge that he is trying to take on me is becoming very apparent. Yeah Just kidding but tonight was real rough at one point I felt as if I should just walk out and get the fuck out. However I stayed through it pulled some brilliant numbers with the crew and had a good close. It was busy as ( Read more... )

Well another day at tbell long and viscious. I have been working so much and getting so little to show for it. I am working my ass off so that I can become an assistant, I need the extra money to pay for college and stuff. God I really need to fill out that damn fafsa again, I am gonna be real late. I hope that I can still get it in or I am ( Read more... )

I have been confused as hell recently, things arent going the way that I wish that they were, oh well what can I do but live and wait for that dare to be great situation. I find that my emotions have taken over and that I can not act upon what I wish that I could. Well I dont know what to do so i am just going to get on with it because thats what ( Read more... )

Well Another day gone and another day to come. I finished most of my homework tonight so tomorrow I prolly only have about an hours worth if I concentrate on it. I am glad that Jenny isnt giving up on me as a friend but I didnt really get a straight answer out of her why she is giving up on the one that she is. I didnt want things to be ( Read more... )

Another day another shitty ass day, same shit different day. I work all day today and then I have to do homework all night. I am not happy things are not going right for me. This whole thing is gay. Jenny feels like I am neglecting her, but the thing is I am trying to not feel the way that I do, and its not working. I feel really attatched to ( Read more... )

Its hard to be cheary when you are always in the dumps about something. I hide it pretty well for the most part except when i get fucked up. Things are wierd for me, but thats life. Live it and live it how you can. I am so tired t-Bell till 4:10 in the morning.

I wrote a whole bunch oh shit but erased it some how. So fuck it I will try again later.