Erase Myself - Chapter 1

[hevyyd]

Title: Erase Myself - Chapter 1
Author: Hevyyd
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Spoilers: none past 5x22
Themes: Suicidal thoughts/actions, demon!Dean
Word Count: 2,192
Summary: In the wake of the Apocalypse, Dean decides to kill himself, Crowley offers to help.
A/N: Another experimental verse, would you like to see where this leads? Feedback is

Comments

[hevyyd]

I'm glad your enjoying it. I would have posted it to the deancastiel fandom like I usually do but it was rejected, which both annoys me and I find to be complete and utter BS.

Whatever, it's not my fandom, I don't make the rules.

[hevyyd]

It's really not that big of a deal.

I and the moderator's probably just have different views of what qualifies as Dean/Cas is all. I'm probably going to have to finish the entire damn story before they'll accept it if that's the case.

Now I'm grumpy. I'm going to go work on the Baku-verse, or maybe Message in the Music.

[namikazekamui]

waaahh.... another update... and i can't wait when sam, cas, and bobby confronted dean in this story... oh, the waiting make me shiver in delight...

good job, can't wait for the next chapter. i start to adore this story...

[hevyyd]

It will be a showdown for the ages I should think.

[aquariell]

Holy crap! I LOVE this idea!! The whole imagery of Demon!Dean arguing with his soul in the mirror and his soul pleading for Cas' help. Just... LOVE. IT.
I can't wait to see where this goes. *excited*

[hevyyd]

Wunderbar! New fan!

OFC now the problem is I have 3 projects to juggle. This, the Baku-verse, and my newest plaything... @.@

[cherazz]

Hoooooooooooooooooooooooly shit! So damn good! I feel like I'm reading a script! There are so many moments that drove me up the wall :O

Crowley catering Dean turning him into his worst nightmare, suave and sinister! The transformation is incredible! And the horror of seeing his black eyes in the mirror, then loving every aspect of it!

I'm going to die, Dean thought, sudden elation swelling inside of him, I'm going to die and there's nothing anyone can do to stop me, but I want them to try. I want Bobby and Cas to try and stop me, I want to laugh at them when they fail, I want them to cry, I want, I want....

I want them to love me. Deans entire being quivered with the thought, and he quickly banished it from his mind.
- Fuckin' love it -purrs- I want them to love me My god, what a powerful line!

He only stopped when he realized he had been thinking about Cas the entire time.
- Yesssssssssssss <3 Omg, Dean, you're killing me! Cas, please go see your bb asap! Love, Cherise

[hevyyd]

I'm glad your enjoying. When we first saw Demon!Dean in canon I damn near wet myself, he was so dark, so sexy, so EVIL. The fact that he terrified Dean to his core was a pleasant bonus too.

The duality-mirror trick is one I use a lot actually. To see it action again read the first chapter of the baku-verse. It helps me capture both sides of Dean warring with one another in just the right way.

I gotta feel bad for Cas though, Dean's gone off the deep and and he's not even sure why.

[hevyyd]

Also I'm in love with that Icon *shivers*

God evil Dean is hot.

[cherazz]

Soooooo sooooo very sad this wasn't continued!!! I absolutely love this and will keep holding out hope~<3

[hevyyd]

Thanks! :3