[dreams] all in the ending
I had a fairly long dream last night. Included was the usual large-scale exploration-style adventure involving crossing large distances, and travelling through odd and interesting lands. Ultimately, a people were saved, and came the after all is well and we can sit back and sort out personal stuff time began.
Now, I don't know a terrible lot about plot development, or sentence construction, for that matter, so this may well have been a good or bad way for things to go. The apparent two protagonists waited til the end to really admit their feelings to eachother. So a rather interesting and unexpected thing happens as soon as it's established that the two are a love interest. The female lead, in this particular story a supporting but very necessary character, draws close, and quickly, but not altogether uncomfortably grabs the male lead by the genitals, Including the pants about them, but they aren't terribly thick. Startled, the male lead more or less gingerly reaches down (as if checking his zipper) in a gesture that may well have meant "What... now!?" or "Now you realise I'm not carrying any weapons now right?", but either way she shakes her head to meaning the obvious, "No" and then says "I have direct access" in a way that suggests a sort of statement of true or proposition of terms. Surrendering to that with an amused shrug gesture, the male lead...
Woke up and was momentarily lonely as I readjusted to the waking dream I know of as life, and the headache that comes with it. I'm not emo, existence really has become somewhat painful, and I'm dealing with it as best I can. I find that getting things done is very satisfying, takes my mind off of the pain and occasionally appears to make it go away until the next day starts. I thought hard enough about the end of the dream that I couldn't fully recall the details of the rest of it. Most odd I figuredd was that the "female protagonist" was younger than me by more than a year, and I usually don't fall for girls younger than me by that much. Yes, believe it or not, I've oft had the situation in which girls aren't mature enough in the emotional and mental sense. Now I may not be the most serious or mature person myself, but... this really is neither here nor there in what I feel like talking about at the moment. Definitely a topic for later discussion.
So anyways, I thought about the way the dream ended quite a bit, and I came to a number of conclusive ideas. I figure, given the situation, she is entitled to what one could call a reserve on what is usually implied by genitals. I wouldn't give that to anyone else while we were together. I also thought that maybe it could be representative of the societal pressure that people, male and I'd assume female, feel in relation to sex while in a relationship.
Looking back it was almost like she was calling dibs which is amusing and quite possibly somewhat flattering to me. Speaking of flattery, a girl had confessed some interest in me at a time right before I was busy having an emotional breakdown and subsequent recovery / picking up of my life. Now, I was, in fact, interested in her the moment I saw her, but didn't mention that even at the time of her mentioning it. I talked to her today, and lost a game of chess to her today, and noted her aparent lack of any desire to interact with me on any other than a superficial level. Figured we might beccme friends, but that doesn't look all that likely given her current attitude toward me. That's a little disappointing, but I won't waste any more effort on that street.
Now my entry has gotten a bit off course, but my question to y'all is this: What do you think was meant by the that ending, if any? Likewise I ask about the actual action, whether such a thing is symbolic, omenistic, or just a wierd dream. Please discuss.
Some other updates are, I've started to use iTunes within the week, and found ways to better organize my music library through it. However, Foobar2000 is still my favorite music player, not to mention, no longer presumed abandonware. iTunes still has some annoyances such as a lack of global nor configurable hotkey-combo capability, not console command-switches that would facilitate remote control. Apparently there are ways to get around this via scripts and I can make customs that would take some space in the background, but the easier and premade ones use bash, which is somewhat clumsy and limited on a windows machine. I've mostly gotten around the lacking global hotkey support using the mini-mode and my usual mouse-over focus option, which isn't terrible and gives my feet some practice. Sleep time!
Now, I don't know a terrible lot about plot development, or sentence construction, for that matter, so this may well have been a good or bad way for things to go. The apparent two protagonists waited til the end to really admit their feelings to eachother. So a rather interesting and unexpected thing happens as soon as it's established that the two are a love interest. The female lead, in this particular story a supporting but very necessary character, draws close, and quickly, but not altogether uncomfortably grabs the male lead by the genitals, Including the pants about them, but they aren't terribly thick. Startled, the male lead more or less gingerly reaches down (as if checking his zipper) in a gesture that may well have meant "What... now!?" or "Now you realise I'm not carrying any weapons now right?", but either way she shakes her head to meaning the obvious, "No" and then says "I have direct access" in a way that suggests a sort of statement of true or proposition of terms. Surrendering to that with an amused shrug gesture, the male lead...
Woke up and was momentarily lonely as I readjusted to the waking dream I know of as life, and the headache that comes with it. I'm not emo, existence really has become somewhat painful, and I'm dealing with it as best I can. I find that getting things done is very satisfying, takes my mind off of the pain and occasionally appears to make it go away until the next day starts. I thought hard enough about the end of the dream that I couldn't fully recall the details of the rest of it. Most odd I figuredd was that the "female protagonist" was younger than me by more than a year, and I usually don't fall for girls younger than me by that much. Yes, believe it or not, I've oft had the situation in which girls aren't mature enough in the emotional and mental sense. Now I may not be the most serious or mature person myself, but... this really is neither here nor there in what I feel like talking about at the moment. Definitely a topic for later discussion.
So anyways, I thought about the way the dream ended quite a bit, and I came to a number of conclusive ideas. I figure, given the situation, she is entitled to what one could call a reserve on what is usually implied by genitals. I wouldn't give that to anyone else while we were together. I also thought that maybe it could be representative of the societal pressure that people, male and I'd assume female, feel in relation to sex while in a relationship.
Looking back it was almost like she was calling dibs which is amusing and quite possibly somewhat flattering to me. Speaking of flattery, a girl had confessed some interest in me at a time right before I was busy having an emotional breakdown and subsequent recovery / picking up of my life. Now, I was, in fact, interested in her the moment I saw her, but didn't mention that even at the time of her mentioning it. I talked to her today, and lost a game of chess to her today, and noted her aparent lack of any desire to interact with me on any other than a superficial level. Figured we might beccme friends, but that doesn't look all that likely given her current attitude toward me. That's a little disappointing, but I won't waste any more effort on that street.
Now my entry has gotten a bit off course, but my question to y'all is this: What do you think was meant by the that ending, if any? Likewise I ask about the actual action, whether such a thing is symbolic, omenistic, or just a wierd dream. Please discuss.
Some other updates are, I've started to use iTunes within the week, and found ways to better organize my music library through it. However, Foobar2000 is still my favorite music player, not to mention, no longer presumed abandonware. iTunes still has some annoyances such as a lack of global nor configurable hotkey-combo capability, not console command-switches that would facilitate remote control. Apparently there are ways to get around this via scripts and I can make customs that would take some space in the background, but the easier and premade ones use bash, which is somewhat clumsy and limited on a windows machine. I've mostly gotten around the lacking global hotkey support using the mini-mode and my usual mouse-over focus option, which isn't terrible and gives my feet some practice. Sleep time!