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I wish I didn't fuck up and you didn't hate me and never want to talk to me again. Even if I was misrable I miss everything so much I want it back to how it used to be when you tried to make me feel better whenever I was doing horrible and to help me not do anything stupid. I want to be able to go to the mall with you or you come visit me when I look like a fool while getting my haircut. I want to be one of the people on the list that matter to you, I was before now I mean shit to you. You meant so much to me I can't even explain it even if I didn't talk alot to you when we were together. But now I'm replaced for someone that I am much better than and there's nothing I can do about it and if you do read this then go ahead and laugh I don't care I'm not a fucking psycho like you say I am you have no idea. I'm just saying I miss you and I want you back in my life. I don't know what else to say so I guess I'm done.
I'm sorry.
