...interesting few days. trivial...

...maybe i m stupid...

...where to we go from here...


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so been an interesting few days. i decided to go home this past weekend. it was soo nice to see my family, they were all so happy to see me, and the feeling was definatly recipercated. my lil brother ben is sooo big. nice wasnt there, he was visiting ana, but i missed him. my mom picked me up friday. got home and relized how lightweight my parents ( Read more... )

so. i stopped counting at elleven. i normally do not drink to solve problems. but here. tonight. i wanna drink. i m numb, but i still hurt.

"That’s when I knew that I could never have you,
I knew that before you did,
Still I’m the one who’s stupid
And there’s this burning, like there’s always been,
I’ve never been so alone, and I’ve never been so

time to move on bob. time to. she has. apparently you missed that a while ago. but no youre a hopeful piece of ass. i wanted to be everything. well at least hers. but thats too much to expect. to be the greatest was a hopeless journey, but not one regretted. i wanted to be someones greatest. greatest anything. maybe i m just hopeless, unsatisfiable ( Read more... )

so yea, havent updated, not that my not updating completely ruined your day. but i let ashley borrow my computer while hers what out of commission. it was actually kinda nice, not having an earge to check facebook or myspace. i left my computer and it was a nice seperation. but im also glad to have it back. my touch to society, ha and to do my most ( Read more... )

so all this time. i ve been lookin for something to make me happy. its just not gonna happen. because its something you cant find. you already have it. i am me. i am a happy me, if i choose. i was looking for that something in someone else. now i m lookin inside me. smile. life could be worse. my cup is half full. which is plenty more full than a ( Read more... )

so i was shown this quote from my TA. i really like it so i wanna share.

"to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer, and to suffer is to suffer" - Sania Grushenko

i really like it. life is just suffering. but in reading it, you pose youre own opinion of the idea. is life just suffering? i guess it all in the eyes of the beholder. the ( Read more... )

so yup. i might complain about el az a lot. but ya know, it has a personality to it, unlike this telemarketing job i m about to go to. i might just miss it. anyways. i closed yesterday again all alone. but it was cool. jimmy even though was off, came back to visit n chill. after work round 11:30pm him n i skated to get some fourties and chill back ( Read more... )

so i feel like shit. i tossed and turned all night last night. cold sweats, headaches, fever, sore throut, even after 2000mg of extra strength tylenol. i still feel like shit. i wish i could take a break from life. my exam this morning kicked my ass as well. today just kinda sucks so far. maybe itll get better. i m hopeful. maybe someone can take ( Read more... )