today. ugh. psych was amusing. shopping with diana. crazy convos with murphy. just gonna go all out and be a slut for halloween. why cover it up and pretend to be a cop or a nurse. i'm just going to be a whore. simple ( Read more... )

i stayed home today.  caught up on life.  with myself.  then with mAtEo and Di.  love them.  missed the abercrombie convos, even though i hate them.  it was fun.  it helped.

thought about relations.  that i don't understand.  at least not anymore.  because apparently i never existed to so many people.  and now i'm just a joke.  i don't know how i ( Read more... )

work. for a long time.  then.  finally.  4&G.  my boys.  thats what i call them.  and can't forget my girl kels.  they were amazing and too cute.  and i knew the words.  it was a moment there.

anarchy.  then home run turned into portillos.  my handshakes with scott.  my rocky: aaww i miss that kid.  then back to the school of rock.  for standing ( Read more... )

football game.  42-21.  time of my life.  last away game of my life.  me and nina.  too many random laughs.  and cheers.  and kip.  then my house.  secrets that apparently can't be told, so why they're brought up i'll never know.  jay, nina, bt, and mike.  then steve, steph, and ange too.  wrestling moves on the front lawn.  craziness.
i saw a ( Read more... )

people that made my day today.

my fiance jacob: you always make me smile.  LakeOfTearsRule: hey baby... dude i am SO going with u.   ill kill ur date.   and take u.

biggie d*train.  you're amazing and i miss you.  glossychick555: hes like such a pansy.  thanks for the support.

kelly at work.  "you're so much prettier than her."  it was so ( Read more... )

people confuse me.  more importantly guys do.  you don't have to act like i don't exist or like you don't know me, especially if you know me more than most other people do.

and i wish people didn't think they knew everything about me, because most really don't.  i'm can be quite surprising.  even to myself.

LakeOfTearsRule: one time i was ( Read more... )

why does it have to be over? this weekend was all that i thought about for the past month.  like diana said, "now what do we have to live for?"

friday: pep rally. so insanely crazy and awesome.  so hectic backstage, but too cute out on the floor.  then came home to work on my dress.  then on my way to the football game.  craziness.  it was FREEZING ( Read more... )

amazing...the best night of my life...the best day of my life...the best girls in the world...the best cheerleaders in the universe...i'm still hyped up and ready to play. i'm so excited...if i was only taller, i would have had that interception. i wish there was a next time. but this is it. and it was so worth it all. i've been really ( Read more... )

i came home and cried today. i really did. i know everyone thinks im joking when i say that i will, but i really did. its because of all this. it makes me cry. its so fucked up i can't do it anymore.

But everything looks perfect from far away

i haven't updated in a while sadly...too much going on. here's a short recap ( Read more... )