i keep getting this feeling like i'm going to throw up or something. i'll think of something that usually does nothing to me but now when i think of some stuff, i just really want to cry, even when it has nothing to do with me. i feel completely fine, things are great, but i guess since i've been bored at work, i have more time to think about ( Read more... )

i keep getting this really bad feeling. i'm not sure what about, but i don't like it. i'm on the edge all the time, always having to defend myself, i hate it. things are going so great, but i feel so fucked up inside. it's not that i'm not happy with my life, because i am. i just feel like i could be doing so much better. i haven't even thought ( Read more... )

fuckers. i barely get on and when i write something, updating you guys on everything that's been happening, no one responds. i don't talk to any of my friends anymore. sometimes caroline. sometimes. ashley. sometimes caitlin. sometimes caila. very rarely christa. i talk to my mom more than all of you combined and i don't even live with her anymore ( Read more... )

new phone number isssss 772-1639 ( Read more... )

BAAAAAAAABIES! i haven't been on this thing called a computer in a while! lots of news ( Read more... )

So I'm really happy. And then i decide to be stupid and look at old journal entries Cory wrote. he deleted most of them before i went into rehab the last time, but the ones that are there... holy shit. i'm suprised i'm not crying right now. i know it was the wrong time and the wrong place, but he was the first person to feel love for me and he ( Read more... )

NEW SCREEN NAME:

x lackofsuprise

yeah, from fight club. 
IM me sometime niggs.

i'm dressing up as a nurse tomorrow so i can take care of troy... you guys know how much i love to dress up haha :P

i'm almost done with high school... i just have to get graduation out of the way!

I keep falling off of this straight and narrow line
The calm embrace of a ( Read more... )

SENIOR PICTURESSSSS
first 12 are in my portfolio. then the "rejects" haha


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working backwards to fix things with myself. not fun, but it'll get done. me and christa pretty much have a new job :) together :) that'll be cool. because i love christa and she loves me and now i'll have a ride to work haha. she's a gangster. look at her.

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This is what Ashley wrote me on my birthday and it always makes me cry when I read it. Especially when I haven't seen her in a while. Like now. I miss her so much! Like, I'm really fucking upset that I can't see her more often. Anyways.. here it is:

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOOVER!!!!!look your nickname! thats what i am calling u from now on. I love you ( Read more... )