(no subject)
Well it's been awhile since i've last updated, has much changed? Well yes, as Of August 14th 3:06pm i became a mommy to a baby boy named Dallas James Tufts. All of this took place as a compelete suprise and also 2 weeks early.
It all started saturday the 13th. I got up nice and early and me my dad,sister,brother, and andrew took a nice long trip to new minas to go to my brother's soccer tournament. It was a good time, we went to the okland farm zoo (YAY MONKEYS), then we procced to pick up kevin and everyone picked up some drinks and came back to my house and got their drink on. All the while this was taking place i felt like poop, i didnt want to ruin the day so i didnt say anything.
So about 4am the next morning i woke up and andrew with a horrid pain in my back and the worse headache i could ask for. So i just stayed up and hoped it would go away. My dad was heading to sacville for the day and andrew didnt have his car, so i didnt want to sacrifice my dads trip so i didn't say anything. So andrew left for work and i stayed home miserable, untill my mom came home from work and took my blood pressure, i cant remeber what the top number was but the bottom was 105 and normal is 80.
So my mom called my dad and told him to come home asap, to take me to the IWK to get checked out. So i packed my purse took a shower did my hair and makeup, and told my sister i'd be home in time for big brother, lol was i wrong.
I was admited right away, up to the early labour assesment at 7pm. They did all kinds of tests and such, i was pretty scared, but they told me the baby was alright but i on the other hand could have a sezisure due to the blood pressure.
At 8pm a nurse came in and said "were going to break your water, and put you into labour." When she said that a million emotions ran through my head, the biggest fear, because it was so unexpected and scary. My first thought was omg andrew is going to miss this, because i thought as soon as it broke, baby comes lol, the nurse assured me this wouldnt be the case.
yay for labour
My mom went outside and called everyone and their dog. My mom came back in and told me andrew would get off work at 11 and him and his mom would be there by 12. So at 9pm i was put down to Labour and Delivery. The nurses there were amaizng, so kind and made everything ok, im glad my mom was there but i wanted andrew so bad.
So hows labour? The first couple hours minus epidural is very painfull, my contractions were strong and very together. Finally after an enternity andrew came in, he cried and hugged me, i think we were both in shock. My mom,dad and mrs tufts stayed in the waiting room overnight because during labour only 1 person could be there overnight.
Around 1am my contracions were amazingly painfull, so my nurse told me its epidural time. Now to be honest the epidural needle hurt more than labour itself, and to make it worse the doctor had to try 4 times because the way my back is aligined, and you cant move because if you do you can parylize your entire lower half, so you have to stay numbingly still while this huge needle is in your back.
My family and the nurses were extremly priud of e during labour, i didnt complain, i didnt sceam, i just cryed a bit. So finally at 10am the next morning, after a crazy 15 hours in labour, it was time to push. You just knnow when you have to push it's werid, and what does it feel like when you have to push? It's like you have to poop lol, honestly.
I'll spare most of the gorey details, but at 1am after 4 hours of pushing, they realised the baby is stuck under my pelvic bone, ouch? yes. and the heart rate is dropping. So i freak and everyones crying wondering wahts going to happen. The doctor came in and told me they were going to use forceps, It were your completly frozen, but you still push while doctors use metal clamps to ease baby out. The only thing was there could only be one person in the OR, which was disapointing for my mom and mrs tufts.
So andrew got his scrubs on, and tried to confort me because i was crying thinking i couldnt make it much longer, because we were going on hour 18 and i was litterly exashauted. So my family kissed me goodbye and i went in the or, the operationg room looks just like on tv with about 10 doctors running around.
Andrew and his scrubs
Finally it was time to push, andrew held my hand and told me he loved me, i was crying, we all were crying. Pushing was hard because i was SO frozen and couldnt feel a thing, but i pushed and pushed as hardas i could, i never thought in a million years i could acomplish something like this. 7 minutes later i heard heres the head, and andrew started crying and telling me im almost there, finally, at 3:06 the doctor said you have a baby boy.
First pciture of Dallas
I lost it, andrew cried, and our nurses cried because andrew started hugging everyone and crying, it was the most amazing thing i've ever witnessed ever, its inderscirble. and right there and then you forget the pain, because you look over and see your son, and its a beautifull feeling.
andrew crying, holding dallas
I didnt even realise the doctors were giving me stitches and sweing things up, all i could see was andrew holding dallas on the phone that connects to the waiting room crying and saying its a boy. The first time he was put on my lap, he wasnt crying he just was laying there looking at me, it was amazing.
After that is a blur, i remeber showing dallas to my family and everyone crying, after that isnt much, i just remebering waking up in my room. Thats when i knew something was wrong, my left leg wouldnt move and my butt was numb lol. The doctors came in, and unforutnely from the epidural it made me pinch a nerve called the siactic nerve in my back causing, horrid pain, and no moment in my foot. As of right now i cant move my toes, i can walk but with a limp lol, but i have an apointment on monday with nerilogists at the qe2 who are going to figure out if i need sugury, or if i just wont have feeling in my foot ever, but it was complety worth it.
Now hospital stays after delivery, you leave the next next day, i ended up staying 8 days and came home the 21 on monday. I developed Preeclampsia, its when a women develops exretmely high blood pressure after delivery, and it only affects 5% of women, just my luck eh? lol, but andrew stayed every single night, the first couple night were scary because i was new at everything, but the nurses helped so much. But on thursday it because bad, and i was serpated from dallas for almost 2 days, because i had to sit in a bed and have an iv pumped in me, i had tubes everywhere, even to pee and such it was not fun, not because of the pain, because i wanted to be with dallas, but the nurses i cant stress enough were amaizng, and im so greatfull for everyone of them.
Being home now is great, my back and leg make it diffuclt sometimes to do things but have so much help its not a problem. Being a mom is the most amaizing thing in the world, i love every second of it, i cant even describe it, at all.
uncle chris, andrew and dallas
I had plenty of vistors in the hospital to make me happy, the guys came a couple of times, sarah and kevin came and saved me from hospital foor and bought the cutest gifts, i had so many people come it was great and thanks to everyone of them because it made things bearable.
Andrew is the dad i thought it would be, he is amazing, abosulty amazing, he loves dallas so much he would give him the world. I love when its just the 3 of us just laying or playing, its our little family, and its beyond anyting i ever dreamed of.
Im pretty much back to normal, i was 165 when i had dallas, and now i weigh 136, the weight comes off extremly fast which was super sprising to me. Enotionally its up and down, of course i get cranky, i cry at least once a day about something silly lol, but its all part of adjusting to motherhood, and i've learned its ok to be scared.
Dallas is my little miracle, and i would go through everything a million more times, just to hold him like i do everyday. I Love you andrew & dallas.
