Oh, you. I love you and your amazing icons, seriously.
I've heard about the Mrs. Doubtfire sequel, & I'm not even sure what the plotline could be or how it could be very good, but I am not-so-secretly jazzed about it, anyway. That movie had such an effect on me when I first saw it; I cried that night because I was sure my parents were going to get divorced, even though I'd never heard them fight or anything. & it kicked off my enduring drag obsession. Way to go, Robin Williams. & way to go, you, for making me smile so.
Oh, Ashley! Greg is so fucking adorable, he's growing up but not too quickly, & I just needed to see family, you know? I know you know. It anchors me, I guess. Just like seeing you will, whenever that happens! Whatever time I am in, however great things are going for me, I'm always looking ahead to the next time I can see you, I've realized. Let's always know each other. Let's hold out for sit-down dinners at Burger King when we're eighty.
I completely understand needing to see the family. I get back to Erie May 10th. I can't wait, hopefully I'll be able to see you that day?? I don't ever want to not have sit down dinners at Burger Kind and all our crazy stories... so random but I had a dream that I think would definitely fit for a sit down dinner at BK. I miss you.
I miss your family. Well, by that, I mean, 'I miss your grandmother!' I'd miss your mother, but it's hard to miss someone who won't stop calling you.
I'll probably be back in Erie after you are, and I will definitely see you the absolute second it's possible. It's going to be so good! Oh, I love you.
I want to hear all about your dream, too, although you don't have to wait until we hit up the BK to tell me about it. I've been thinking a lot about dreams, lately, maybe because I've been remembering mine more frequently. I've heard that it's unhealthy to remember your dreams all the time, that it's a sign of bad sleeping patterns or some shit like that, but I kind of like remembering. It makes me feel like I'm living more, even if it's only through imagination. In dreams, I do things I'll never be brave or stupid enough to do in real life; it's nice to have memories of it, at least.
Hey, look: I'm in the middle of writing back to you right now. Watch out for that. I miss you, I've missed you, I'm sorry for not replying earlier. I love you.
i think i had a dream where your brother hit on me, last night. awkward, very awkard. actually, what i remember in my dream is thinking about how awkward it was. i hope you're good.♥
It's great to have someone you can tell everything to, even if they are your therapist. So often in my life I wish I were surrounded by people I loved. Even so, there are too many things to be grateful for, even in a troubled life.
Yeah, I've had some incredibly luck with therapy, although it looks as if I might be taking a break for a while, at least. Now that my therapist thinks I'm dealing really well, I can't stand to disappoint her; it will feel like failing one more person, you know?
I'm lucky, because I am surrounded by people I love, almost always, but knowing that they'll never love me the way I want them to makes it harder to take, sometimes. Still, you're right: the good things outweigh the awful, every time.
of all the things in this world, loneliness is one of the hardest. i think of human relationships as these is moving, utterly dynamic spaces, where anything can happen. and love...well...if you could choose how to love someone, then it woulnd't be love, would it?
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Oh, you. I love you and your amazing icons, seriously.
I've heard about the Mrs. Doubtfire sequel, & I'm not even sure what the plotline could be or how it could be very good, but I am not-so-secretly jazzed about it, anyway. That movie had such an effect on me when I first saw it; I cried that night because I was sure my parents were going to get divorced, even though I'd never heard them fight or anything. & it kicked off my enduring drag obsession. Way to go, Robin Williams. & way to go, you, for making me smile so.
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Oh, Ashley! Greg is so fucking adorable, he's growing up but not too quickly, & I just needed to see family, you know? I know you know. It anchors me, I guess. Just like seeing you will, whenever that happens! Whatever time I am in, however great things are going for me, I'm always looking ahead to the next time I can see you, I've realized. Let's always know each other. Let's hold out for sit-down dinners at Burger King when we're eighty.
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I miss your family. Well, by that, I mean, 'I miss your grandmother!' I'd miss your mother, but it's hard to miss someone who won't stop calling you.
I'll probably be back in Erie after you are, and I will definitely see you the absolute second it's possible. It's going to be so good! Oh, I love you.
I want to hear all about your dream, too, although you don't have to wait until we hit up the BK to tell me about it. I've been thinking a lot about dreams, lately, maybe because I've been remembering mine more frequently. I've heard that it's unhealthy to remember your dreams all the time, that it's a sign of bad sleeping patterns or some shit like that, but I kind of like remembering. It makes me feel like I'm living more, even if it's only through imagination. In dreams, I do things I'll never be brave or stupid enough to do in real life; it's nice to have memories of it, at least.
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I know what you mean.
Hey, look: I'm in the middle of writing back to you right now. Watch out for that. I miss you, I've missed you, I'm sorry for not replying earlier. I love you.
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awkward, very awkard.
actually, what i remember in my dream is thinking about how awkward it was.
i hope you're good.♥
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That's insane. My brother is ridiculous and incredible, but also very gay. I hope.
Seriously, look at the kid:
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and that you get better.
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Yeah, I've had some incredibly luck with therapy, although it looks as if I might be taking a break for a while, at least. Now that my therapist thinks I'm dealing really well, I can't stand to disappoint her; it will feel like failing one more person, you know?
I'm lucky, because I am surrounded by people I love, almost always, but knowing that they'll never love me the way I want them to makes it harder to take, sometimes. Still, you're right: the good things outweigh the awful, every time.
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