I'm happy. No more torture. I'm pretty sure I can handle it, but it's still subject to testing. We'll see how it goes in the coming days.

I'm good the way things are. All I need are my friends. Who needs anything else? I can live without everything I keep yearning for. That way I'll stop looking, stop expecting and stop disappointing and hurting myself. I'm tired of it. Forget it all. Will never happen again. No more tears, no longer pathetic. Who needs any of that?

I'm done with it

1. My name ( Read more... )

It's funny how once something either good or bad happens, it pours. The last one or two weeks have been really awful, filled with stress and emotional break downs, and it kept pouring. Tonight, just two things made me feel so much better, despite what has been happening to me ( Read more... )

Don't want to give up or let go, but it seems I need to. I need to get my priorities straightened out before it's too late. I don't want to regret anything. My stupid brain just doesn't seem to be absorbing the pressure anymore, so all the more I end up slacking. Wish I was naturally smart. That way, slacking off wouldn't be such a big threat. I ( Read more... )

I know i'm making a big deal out of nothing, but it's hard to get rid of. Crap.

Math long test again tomorrow. Hope I don't screw up as bad as I did last time.

Wish it was me, but it's not my place to be the one.

So friggin' pissed. Not as if I had nothing going on but my mom refuses to stop getting on my case. I'm tired of being seen as someone who is incapable of doing anything. I know my priorities are screwed up and I'm not as responsible as i used to be but I know when to work when i have to. I work better with pressure. And I hate the way my mom ( Read more... )

So many things happened in the last week. Ups and downs. Just hoping to get through this week.

accounting's an ass. math is a bitch. crap. i'm screwed.

How come when you think about something, it never comes. and the only time you get your mind off it, that's when it surprises you. Wish I didn't see it.

Never felt more useless, unproductive and stupid. I feel like I don't deserve to be in school because I haven't studied and I'm failing. I shouldn't be a project head cause I'm so incompetent. Missing the days I used to get things done. What's wrong with me? I feel like an idiot ( Read more... )