i am so bored already now that sam has left for his road trip to seattle. its only the first night he is gone and im feeling a little sad and lonely. we just started to patch things up between us. it was a good start, and im hoping that it continues once he comes back ( Read more... )

last night was a little boring. i'm glad i got out, but i thought that i should have stayed home because i wasn't really connecting with the people who were over there. i just didn't know them that's all. i really hate how i do that though, i need to change that ( Read more... )

I'm so happy to say that i have finally gotten my nails license. Its the only thing that has been on my mind for the past 2 to 3 weeks, and its such a relief to have that silly piece of paper on my fridge.
i had a great time this weekend with sam papo and brandon. a good weekend with a lot of hard laughing, fun friends and many events. i think my ( Read more... )

laughing 
smiliing 
crying
eating
sleeping
watching tv
sad
arguing

sam made a new friend,  its our neighbor. he must be 23 or so with a wife and 2 dogs. 
hes really into acting and film just like sam. im happy for him.
as for me...no luck in the friends department.

work is good, almost 30 dollars in one night. good tips for being the hostess.  
im saving for a tattoo that will cost around 100-130. im hoping its less ( Read more... )

waking up late just isnt working out for me anymore. 
i always feel so bad and i can never seem to get out 
of this really bad mood. i think that might be the reason
im trying to force things onto sam right now.
i need to stop and just relax before i ruin anything with us. 
thats the very last thing i ever want to do.

i just cant wait to be living with ( Read more... )

sam and i never went to cuvee. It was posponed because my manager alfredo had his baby the night before. its now this coming sunday and im really hoping that he can come up so we can have some fun.

im tired of feeling like i dont have anything to offer to anyone. i cant do anything exciting, my interests dont interest. i feel like im missing all these kinds of things that create personality or it is mine that arent great.

nothing has been going right around here in this house. its so full of negativity,
i just wish there was something i could do to help.but im feeling pretty happy. 
sam and i are doing better than we ever have. we have our own apartment, 
were supporting eachother, and everythings is good. its an incredible feeling 
to have a best friend and a good ( Read more... )

i am satisfied with how my life is going right now ( Read more... )