May 23rd, 1985
Oh gods, I am in so much trouble when it comes to Reese. So much. I know we've liked each other for a long time, but the past four months since things have been official (gods, has it only been four months?) have been going so fast-
Simply put, I wanted to have a good time, but I wasn't supposed to fall in love with him. I know I'd been denying my feelings to myself for the past little while, and I had been doing a pretty good job of convincing myself that it was just something in passing until he blurted out at practice that he loved me and all bets were off. I just- We're going to be in two completely different places come September and I wanted the break to be as easy as possible (all things considering) and now it's going to be bloody awful It's going to be on my mind all summer, I just know it.
...Seriously. When did I turn into such a girl?
Sigh. I don't know if this is something I should talk about or keep to myself, or what. I know Bridget went through something similar - maybe I'll talk to her when I get home and know more of how things are going to be after school is over.
And that idea about myself and Victoria getting a flat or something - I still really like it, but I don't know how it would be possible right after school. Still, it's something to keep thinking about as well.
Well, I played in my last Hogwarts Quidditch match yesterday... It still feels a bit surreal that it's finished, to be honest. I've been a starter for five years, and Captain for two- This has pretty much been my life at Hogwarts, and I don't want to think that it's the end just yet. And before anyone asks again, no, I haven't decided yet who gets to be Captain next year. Tim and myself are the only players who won't be back, so there's a lot of options. Everyone's been great and I feel confident handing over the reins of the Ravenclaw team to any one of them. It'll be a bittersweet day when that happens, though - I've really enjoyed being Captain.
For now, I guess, it's time to focus a bit more on preparing for NEWTs. I'm sitting a lot of them and I want to do well in case Quidditch doesn't work out. I need a back-up plan, you know?
That said, however, I'm taking a bit of a breather this afternoon to listen to the wireless and I'll start revision full out again tomorrow. Portree is playing the Harpies in a few minutes and I want to be able to cheer on both my sister and Emmaleigh in the hope that they both get some playing time in this match.