things are decent.. i'll revel, for a moment.. soon, once i get a replacement, i'm gone..

everytime i sneeze.. i also pee a little in my pants..

so.. i'm going to get a day off on saturday.. i'm very excited about it.. oh and FUCK YOU!! i'm so sick and tired of your shit! who the fuck do you think you are? huh?! why don't you just fucking tell me so i don't have to guess anymore.. are we friends not friends fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

i'm sad.. and lonely.. but it only gets worse when i'm kept busy.. i have no love right now, there are some of you who try, but really we know it isn't the same..

okay.. so.. guitars and recording.. blonde girls and parties.. superbowl winnings beers.. still wonderful

scotch is good.. drink scotch.. love it.. learn from it... and sometimes just really fuckin' masturbate

i still can't feel my fucking arm!!

so.. the school thing went really well.. i was surprised how fast three hours went by.. i think i'm going to go back there next term and do it again. it was a lot more fun than i thought it would be. Miho told me when we went out to lunch that all the kids really liked me and i was a natural. she said most people get really nervous around the kids ( Read more... )

so.. i had a dream about my dead brother last night.. was really wierd.. going to see nile again.. too many people, too much love.. not enought of me to go around.. fuck

anxiety.. sleeplessness.. hate.. rage.. fuck.. fuck the winter. stop loving me.. seriously.. i hate you