can i lose 5 lbs now please?

aw heels are so cute but they really mess up ur feet! i have a friend who's doc says that her posture is a little funny cus she wears heels too much. ive been wearing heels more lately. aw so cute! but my big toes feel sore cus my body weight is balanced on them. well, back to midterm studying. i love it! not....

ahhhhh. dont you hate it when you have that gross "i-think-i'm-screwed" feeling? yeah that's how i'm feelig now. ahhhh. break threw me off. I had too much time to relax and procras. blah. BLAAAHHHH! well i'm back in davis now and gonna start studying hopefully like 6 or 7ish tmrw morn. gonna skip my internship.

i may have mentioned this before in the past, but i love being at home bc i feel like a kid again. spoiled i am. I mean, someone cooks for me. and i dont have to entertain guests like the big people do. when my uncle came by with this new chick, i didnt feel obligated to like stay the whole night and talk to her. Whereas if it was my apt i would be ( Read more... )

binging. mmmm so bad. i still miss chris i must say. i think i scare people away. and that's not good.

today has been a day of full-from-eating-way-too-much bloatedness. Man. Sushi with the yoshis and mike and drew and david and sharon was GEEEEEREAT. i love sushi and i hadnt had it for a while.so it was satisfying. blah boys still. mmm.... but ice cream was DDEEEEEEELICIOUS. studying was eh. can't wait to go home! i love my family. and i miss them ( Read more... )

activism and the new coordinator for ucd are reminding me how excited i am to do activism stuff, especially for the environement. its good to distract myself too from chris thoughts. no more woe-is-me? ... to get somewhat of a sense of what we've been doing, an email i sent my peeps ( Read more... )

i really just want to be comforted. I am just really longing to see him and be with him. And I feel like he's the only one who can make this better. But its not gonna happen ever. and that makes me sad.

hey kids,

I'm a little too boy-crazy for my own good! I was telling yosh... this boy-craziness is so HS. come on now, stalking? oh monica. but eh. hey i'm young for my grade right? haha. anyways, its funny and distracting and dumb but fun-ish.

have a lovely weekend!
-mon

im in the library now. kinda a bummy day. rainy, cold, dreary. This day and the stuff i have to do in this day is like a menstrual cramp. I'm busy stressed but not overwhelmed-crying stressed. Like a cramp, its just like an incessant annoying pain. not one big full-on pain for a short amount of time, but a small pain that is with you FOREVER. so i ( Read more... )