Well, I guess I don't know where to go today. For all of you who don't know, I've chosen to drink again. I had a nice several month spell of saying no and well, I guess I feel that I am ready to take drinking for what it is and be in control. I can say for certain that I did just fine this weekend. I did even better the second night because the ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder why things are as they are. I know that I'm not the only person to think this, live it, breathe it or anything of the sort, but sometimes I really wonder why me? I'm not calling out for help, not desperate or pleaing for things to be easier, but why do things fall my way every single time? I seem to get a good solid footing, make ( Read more... )

You are a guitar.


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Man, I know I talk about it a lot but pulling 41.5 hours this week is killer feeling today. The 3 middles were okay until near the end of today, it's awful. I should be in bed already but you can't just come right home from work and jump into bed. I work at 8 and don't have a day off until the middle of next week, but it's okay. After next week I ( Read more... )

Have any of you been listening to the Q lately? Yeah, that's right, the band I said would make it big made it there, Submersed! I don't like to brag or anything... haha, but I'm on a roll with these new bands. Maybe I should be a band scouter, forget college just drop out, lol. Anyways, if any of you like my kind of music or like rock 'n roll, hit ( Read more... )

I really would like to post on a day when things are going so perfectly and I am so happy, but it seems that those days never quite come. Today was one of those days that you didn't see coming, like you were blindsided by a train and had no way of changing the way things turned out. Today was a depressing day, from start to finish. My New Years ( Read more... )

I just got back from a nice long walk with Zach, we had a conversation about a lot of stuff, things that happened last night, just life things, coming from different backgrounds, it was a nice time. It was good to just be outside and walk, it's a great way to clear the mind. I'm fairly content right now, just a bit worried about my paper because I ( Read more... )

Wow, after 4 days of very little sleep I think I am starting to get sick. I woke up this morning with a stiff right wrist and neck and felt like crap. So for my own sake I decided that at 2 tonight everyone has to be out of the room. I know very well that I won't be tired tonight because I'm weird like that, but I am forcing myself to go to ( Read more... )

I really enjoy singing this song, a whole lot. "The day that I was down, I remember all your words to me." It is really a beautiful line. On this aspect, over the weekend I had a great time hanging out with Zach again, we had an awesome time. At about 2 in the morning we decided to take a mic, guitar and 2 amps out into his garage, hook them up and ( Read more... )

I am probably in one of the worst moods right now. I want to stop writing this stupid paper that I am writing and go to bed. In fact after this I am going to do that. There are some things that I just can's stand anymore because they really are freaking me out inside my head. I just want to go insane and fall off the face of the Earth sometimes. If ( Read more... )