So today was crazy. I hate twelve hours of marching and guard work. URG. Plus, two of my friends told Charles that I like him. I won't deny it. I do like him. I just didn't want him to know yet. I just wanted to keep it quiet for a bit. URG. Ohwell. It's out now. All I can do is go with it. Andrea told me to look on the bright side..." ( Read more... )

I cried a bit last night. Ohwell. Crying makes me feel a bit better. I want it clear that it is my fault for dwelling on this dumb problem of mine. It is not anyone's fault but my own. DID YOU HEAR THAT SEAN? It's MY fault! It's like I'm not allowed to be upset still. It's tons of things combined not just the fact that Sean and I aren't ( Read more... )

I didn't sleep too well last night. I went to bed at like 10:30. Then I got up for a bit because I couldn't fall asleep. I went to bed I don't remember what time it was. Then I woke up again 12:45. I feel asleep around 1. Then I woke up at 2:30. Fell asleep at 2:45ish. And woke up at 5:30. AHHHHHHHH. Too little sleep! Ohwell. I guess I' ( Read more... )

Mom went to lay down for a bit this afternoon to get rid of a headache. Well, I went in the living room and cried. I just needed a good cry. After thinking and realizing some things I felt like it would be a good time to cry. I fell asleep on the couch. I slept for two hours. I guess that's good. Images I saw in my head weren't good. I won' ( Read more... )

It was just like yesterday except I really didn't talk to anyone. Ashley was supposed to meet me earlier so we could talk and I could try to get things off my mind. I think people thought I was crazy because I seemed kinda happy. I just don't want people to think that I need their pity. I don't. I drank coffee and had some sugar. So I was a ( Read more... )

You've got to get better it's all in your head ( Read more... )

7:15 a.m.- I arrived at HHS. To my dismay I was the only other person to arive early other than the staff and Jake Bokeno, but I dislike Jake. So I talked to Heather. I walked outside and seen no one was coming. Darn my luck ( Read more... )

I have been thinking. Thinking about you. Yah, the only thing I have been thinking about since last night. I wanted to you come see Band-O-Rama on September 25th. I still want you too. But, in a way, I don't. I think if I would see you there it would cause so much pain. Same thing with King's Island. You say you want me to go, yet I fear if ( Read more... )

Sean broke up with me last night. Yes, I'm upset. It hurt. I truly loved him. Yet, it's good to know he'll be happier without me. I'll live. I'll always love him though. I've branded his name in my heart. It's going to be hard. I want to stay his friend. I need that. I need to be able to at least talk to him. I want him to be able to ( Read more... )

So, I've been thinking in the last couple of days. I don't understand things. Like why in the world my life is so screwed up? I don't know. Maybe it is because I'm too emotional. I mean everyone says it's good. Well everyone except you. I'm not sure I should be so loving. I'm not so sure I sould care. I don't even think you know what it's ( Read more... )