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Dear Matthew Siebert,
Lately i have been with you alot. and your girlfriend too. Its been such an amazing break with you. You have helped me with so much this past year and i can already see it coming into 2006. You have kept my chin high hoping for something amazing to happen. You always i mean always... doubt me and my little jokes. you always tell me im lying about my statistics.. and what not and one day you will learn that they are all true!! hahaha. I wanna have a bob and annes time againm with you because that one time was wonderful. I love ya matty!
Dear Jessica Drake,
That picture says it all. I look at that now and say i didnt even know who you were when that was taken. Ever since cosmo i have gotten closer and closer with you each day passing by. I love it. You are giving the best attention i have ever recieved in a long time. I love it. Hanging out with you every day for the past 2 weeks and we are still loving eachother. Im glad i spent these past weeks with you. Its been great. Thank you for all your kinds words and all the advice you have givin me. All of the things you said would happen are happening. I wish i could have gotten this close with you in the summer. It would've been amazing. I love you and thank you girly!
Dear Ashlee Sherwood,
What in the world is going on? Im not going to sit here and talk about drama with you. its not like that anymore. Im not going to continue having conversations with you about things we hate. Ashlee maire, you know how much i have been there for you and i know you know how much you have been there for me. I always think when my mom got married when we were freshmen, and i was in your room balling my eyes about and you and your mom came in and hugged me and held me like no one ever has. All i felt was love and its sure what i needed. I think about one month ago i randomly showed up at your house late, but not to late. and i told you everything that i needed to tell you. and it all came out the right way. you know me, how often does that happen? haha never. Ashlee you know that i will always love you and i willalways care for you, I know you think that im not here half of the time and the times that i am it seems like there is no care. Im sorry for a couple of days ago, you thinking the wrong, and what not. Im sorry and hopefully you know that. I wanna have a girl night with you soon. I miss my summer with you alot. ALOT ALOT. "MR. BRIGHTSIDE" and taking the most beautiful pictures ever, god damn girl i loved it. i know you loved it. you know i lvoe you and i know you love me too. end.
Dear Rachael Noreen
My lovely lady. Theres so much to say about you. Its crazy. Alright. I can say for starts you are mad at me right now when i have done absolutly nothing to you. You are mad at me for no reason. You told me to call you whenever i need you, so guess what I NEED YOU! I miss you like crazy and you know that. Those pictures that we took right before or after school started God damnit was i happy and god damnit so were you. Those videos we watched in your basement, ahhahahah those were crazy. I was so happy i cant believe it. I miss our summer together. I hate how things are right now. i hate how we are right now. I have never been uncomfortable around you until two nights ago. It was to crazy for me. we went to dennys and all that. I felt like i wasnt with my rachael. I felt i was with some girl who wanted to kill me. and i was just dragging her along with me. It made me feel all goofy like you,, actally rachael didnt like me. I hate that feeling. My girlfriend, you know what you are to me i dont feel the need to explaine myself on livejournal. if you want to know read all my my LJ entries and they will tell you. I love you always and forever.
Dear Scott Dewar,
You are have been an amazing friend towards me. I love it. Im so glad that me and you can still hang out and still laugh about all the silly shit that goes on. I love our talks that we have. and they still continue till this day. You have such an amazing personality its so awesome. I dont know who can be mad at you and stay mad at you. Me and Drake were talking about it the other day. and she says.. NO one can stay mad at scott hes just to damn cute and so damn nice... it cant ever happen. and that one night i told you in your garage about perfection. its so true. and everyone only speaks good things about you. thank you ohh so much for everything that oyou have said to me. it means so much. I have made you a promise and im sticking to it. Only reason why.. Im scared you will kill me :-) hahaha. kidding. but for real, your amazing scott and i love you.
Dear Erika Latondress,
I have met you just this year and i hated your guts. hahaha. that was crazy but cosmo kicked our ass. with all the shit going on right now, you know you are always in the back of my head. always! I cannot thank you enough for all the car rides, shopping days, screaming out lungs out days and so fourth. Its been an amazing 4 months with you in my life. I couldnt take any of it back even if i tried. Your a beautiful girl inside and out, i just dont think you realize alot. thats all. I love you so much and im sorry for everything lately. Im not myself.
Dear Justin Duane Myers,
I laugh so hard when i look at that picture and all the rest from that day bowling with Karla. I laugh so hard to look at all the pics me and you have taken. Im so glad i have kept all of them. what can i say to you that you havent already heard...nothing. you know everything about me and what i think about you. Its kinda crazy if you think about it. You are so beautiful to me and you will always continue to be. You are always in my heart and will hold you forever. I hate to see that things arent good with us right now. and all it needs is time for us to know things and understand thing. Im sorry for everything that has happened and im glad you have forgave me, It means so much. Im glad that me and you can look past all that and focus on whats going on right this moment. You mean the world you me and i would die if i knew what it really was. "i trace your hands in mine so that your always with me" I love you justin myers. thank you for all the times we have had and time times we will hopefully still continue to have. You have been amazing this past year and it will always stay with me.
Dear Kelsey Garcia,
I know that i am strong and i know that i am weak, i know that i can cry and i know that laugh. I know that i am frown and i know that i can smile. I know that i can put my mind to something and i know i will be happy in the end. tonight i prayed. I never do. I felt like a little girl I kneed next to my bed and put both my hands together and prayed. I actually felt something, like a feeling a somehting that i have never got before. I cried for the good, I prayed for everything possible. I was begging for something good to happen. I sounded so ridiculous but it doesnt matter what i did, as long as i got it all out. I know i will smile without it hurting one day. I know that i will smile and feel love once again. I know that i will lay in my bed and will be able to fall asleep with out any thing to worry about. But as for right now, im getting by each and everyday. im doing my best and if thats not good enough, then i dont know what is.