LIKE A GLASS- Family Moments
Title: Family Moments 1
author: hidaka_yuushi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Major Fluff, mild angst
Length: 1 shot
Summary: The first night in YooSu household when Junsu decided to give himself to Yoochun again... no matter what it takes
“Mmmpph…”
Yoochun smiled slightly at the picture below him. Junsu, face flushed with desire, eyes scrunched close as he tried to bear with the overstimulation on his body, lips swollen and pink due to numerous kisses…
Perfect.
The older man shifted his body slightly, wanting to move to a better position to overwhelm the exotic creature beneath him with pleasure, to make him forget about anything but him, his voice, his body, his caresses…
But when he felt the body tensed unconsciously below him, Yoochun immediately moved away from his breathless husband. As he looked down, he realized that he had accidentally crossed the border. His hands had travelled below Junsu’s night shirt to touch the pale skin of his stomach.
Stifling a groan, he forced himself to calm down. It wouldn’t do Junsu any good to see how unsettled he was. He knew that Junsu would feel guilty… feel useless… for still not be able to shake away his trauma despite the innocence of the action, despite the time that had passed by.
“C hunnie-ah…” Yoochun looked up at the call of his name by his husband to see the other man still clenching his eyes shut while his hands were clasping the sheets tightly. “Chunnie… I,I’m okay. Really!” He opened his eyes slightly at his husband’s unresponsiveness and tried to convince him again. “ I’ll be fine! You, you don’t need to stop…”
But how can Yoochun continue his act just to satisfy himself? The slight tremble of Junsu’s body as he tried to fight his body instinctive reaction was more than enough to douse the fire that had raged throughout his body just a few minutes ago. He preferred never to get any fulfillment than to force Junsu for his pleasure. What he had done before had been more than enough. And he would sooner to kill himself than repeating that barbaric act.
So he opted to shifted his body up to lie beside Junsu and gathered the smaller man into his arms instead. Planting soft kisses on his husband’s cheeks and forehead, he then forced Junsu who was clearly disappointed at his own body’s reaction to face him.
“Susu-yah…” It got no response as Junsu still stubbornly tried to curl into himself, deeply ashamed by his own cowardice. Looking at his husband’s attempt to ignore him, Yoochun decided to let him be and choose to hug the other man from behind instead. He leaned his forehead on Junsu’s back of head and whispered to him.
“It’s okay Su-yah… I’m okay… You can take as much time as you need…”
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Junsu bit back the tears of frustration that threatened to spill out from his eyes as he listened to his husband whispering comfort against his ears over and over again.
‘But it’s not okay! It’s not okay for me to be like this while you already been so wonderful…’
He couldn’t express how frustrated he was when his body betrayed him repeatedly. Yoochun had been infinitely patient while Junsu had grown more and more ashamed at his body’s response… despite Yoochun’s gentleness.
He wanted Yoochun to just ignore his body’s rejection. He knew that he wanted those hands on his skin; that lip on his chest, his stomach, his thighs, his… And he was sure that if he had experienced it, his body’s protest would be immediately put into rest. His mind wanted it, desperately, and now he only needed to silence his mind.
But he also knew that Yoochun would never force himself on him… not again. Not even when he was the one who wanted it. And it had drove him crazy…
And that’s what prompted him to come out with THE PLAN.
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“Why?”
Jaejoong had looked at him suspiciously when Junsu had requested him to look after Na Young and Tae Hyun overnight that day. He sighed as he could even see the wheels inside his brother’s brain had started to turn to find the possible motivation behind the request.
“Hyung, just do it ok? I just need to have a talk with Chunnie,” Junsu said and handed Tae Hyun into his brother’s embrace.
“A talk? The Talk? Junsu-yah, did he do anything to you? Did he hurt you anywhere? That Park bastard I’m going to…”
“Hyuuuuuung,” Junsu couldn’t help but to whine with frustration as his brother launched into one of his Park-Yoochun-is-an-evil-bastard-and-I’m-going-to-annihilate-him speech. After all of this time Jaejoong was still hostile against his husband. “No, he didn’t do anything to me!!” ‘Even if I want him to do things to me…’
Although he still eyed his brother with suspicion, Jaejoong finally agreed to take his nephews back home and Junsu released a relieved breath.
Stage 1 completed.
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When Yoochun reached home that night, he immediately noticed that something was amiss. It was not hard to notice since the usually rowdy house was strangely silent that night.
Several awful scenario immediately popped into his mind. Did something happen to his children? Or Junsu? Or all of them? Did someone break into the house? Did…
But when he stepped into the house, all of those thoughts were swiftly replaced by the notion that he must have knocked his head somewhere and everything was currently inside his imagination.
Junsu, naked as the day he was born, was waiting for him in the living room. Spread out on the carpet with only several pillows accompanying him and keeping him warm, naked. Face and whole body flushed red and naked. And had he mentioned naked?
“J, Junsu-yah…” He swore that he had swallowed his tongue at the sight in front of him.
“Chunnie-yah…” Junsu lifted up his body from his position to face his flustered husband and he gulped at the sight of lust that was visible on Yoochun’s face.
“S,Su-ah… What, what are you doing?” Yoochun walked toward his husband and sat near Junsu as close as possible without him touching Junsu. He knew that if he touched him, all of his self control would be turned into dust.
Junsu cursed himself for thinking that it was a good idea. Well, he certainly got his husband all riled up and flustered by his act, but now he couldn’t even bring himself to start opening his mouth and seduce his husband so that he would lose all of his control and just…jumped him.
“su-ah?” His husband prompted again and leaned closer to Junsu whose body immediately tensed. Yoochun sighed and moved his body back immediately.
He felt that he could cry. The alcohol didn’t even help his body to unwind! It still stupidly tensed up whenever Yoochun was anywhere close to his bare skin and he knew that no matter he tried to seduce Yoochun now, his husband wouldn’t want to force himself at him.
“Su?” Now Yoochun panicked. His husband had started crying suddenly. He could only watch worriedly from the side as he didn’t want to send Junsu into hysterics if he tried to comfort him while he was still naked. After a few moments, he decided to run into the bedroom and grab a big blanket, then covered Junsu with it before hugging and comforting him.
“Junsu-yah…. What happened? Tell me?”
Junsu tried to answer… or at least to calm his frantic husband down… to explain that nothing was wrong, only himself and his body stupidity. But all that came out from his mouth was only a choking sound as he forced the words to come out from his throat.
In the end, Yoochun settled to rock the smaller man to calm him down in his arms. He didn’t know what happened, but he had some small guesses judging from the wine on the table, the sight of his naked husband welcoming him in the living room, and now, the crying man in his embrace.
“I…I…” after a few minutes filled with soft sobs and choking sounds, Junsu finally found his voice back. “I’m just so… angry about myself. I can’t even enjoy our time together… I want it but my stupid body just keep… rejecting you! I thought alcohol can…”
Yoochun’s heart cracked at his husband’s confession. He never thought that his advances had only pressurized Junsu to try to please him… the weight of guilt settled in his heart, and it was his turn to choke.
“Su-ah… I’m sorry… I don’t mean to ask you to…”
But he was shocked as Junsu suddenly spun with fury and grasped his shoulder tightly. “NO! stop feeling guilty! I want this, okay! I want you! Stop being so gentle to me!!!”
It was a proof how shocked Yoochun was that he didn’t even do anything as Junsu pushed him on the floor and started to kiss him ferociously. He was too over his head from the astonishment, from the pleasure that suddenly drowned him as Junsu decided to win over his body and finally took action.
But as he saw the smaller body shivered with tension as Junsu’s mind battled with his body, he decided that it was his turn to do something. Gently, so not to scare his already terrified husband more, he put his arms around the lithe body and softly pulled Junsu to lie on top of him.
He couldn’t lie that the feeling of Junsu’s bare skin, even against his clothed body, was overwhelming. But he forced that desire down and focus on his husband who was still looking at him apprehensively despite the action he had taken.
“Sssh.. “ He put his hand on Junsu’s back lightly, without any force to keep him in place. “Slow is okay… Take your time, Su-yah. I will be here for you… to do anything you want… just… enjoy yourself, okay?” He whispered gently and then he lied back down and surrendered himself to be taken into an unforgettable ride led by his husband.
If Junsu didn’t believe in karma before, he surely believed it now. As that night he finally reclaimed the pleasure from the very most thing that had been used to draw out the worst torture from his body, he wondered whether the happiness he experienced now was a payment from God for all of his suffering beforehand.
And afterwards, after they finally gathered their breath, Yoochun stood up slowly and gently carried his husband, who slumped bonelessly against his body, into his bedroom. He laid the exhausted man down on their bed and he quickly took some clothes to clean his husband tenderly.
“Mhmm… Chunnie?”
The delirious calling sound from the exhausted man prompted him to smile and immediately attended Junsu. “Yes, baby?”
Junsu forced his drooping eyes to open and looked at his husband who in turn, showered him with tender stare. “We… we finally did it, right? I…my body…” The unasked question was ringing clearly in Yoochun’s mind. I finally win the fight with my body right? I finally able to give my all to you…
Once again, Yoochun was reminded how he definitely didn’t deserve this angel presence in his life at all. He was the one who made Junsu’s life a living hell, taking away the control of his body that his husband even need to struggle just to enjoy a physical intimacy… but Junsu… never did he blame him… instead he tried over and over again to beat the trauma in his head… for what?
So that he could finally be able to give himself fully to Yoochun again… to make him happy… to satisfy his needs…
Yoochun smiled lovingly at his drowsy husband and planted a soft peck on his forehead. “Yes, Su-ah… And I can’t thank you enough for giving me such a great gift…” And he knew that he gave the right answer if the bright smile that blossomed on Junsu’s face was any indication.
And as he turned off the bed light beside him, pulling up the blanket and ensuring that his husband had been comfortably covered, and settling him inside his embrace, he didn’t forget to utter a small prayer of thanks to the divine being above for giving him such a lovely angel for him to keep and to cherish.
A/N The first promised drabble! This is for sheilapiglet as I wrote it for her request. I didn't write it in the first place but when she prompted me about this scene, i think that it might be quite good to write^^!
author: hidaka_yuushi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Major Fluff, mild angst
Length: 1 shot
Summary: The first night in YooSu household when Junsu decided to give himself to Yoochun again... no matter what it takes
“Mmmpph…”
Yoochun smiled slightly at the picture below him. Junsu, face flushed with desire, eyes scrunched close as he tried to bear with the overstimulation on his body, lips swollen and pink due to numerous kisses…
Perfect.
The older man shifted his body slightly, wanting to move to a better position to overwhelm the exotic creature beneath him with pleasure, to make him forget about anything but him, his voice, his body, his caresses…
But when he felt the body tensed unconsciously below him, Yoochun immediately moved away from his breathless husband. As he looked down, he realized that he had accidentally crossed the border. His hands had travelled below Junsu’s night shirt to touch the pale skin of his stomach.
Stifling a groan, he forced himself to calm down. It wouldn’t do Junsu any good to see how unsettled he was. He knew that Junsu would feel guilty… feel useless… for still not be able to shake away his trauma despite the innocence of the action, despite the time that had passed by.
“C hunnie-ah…” Yoochun looked up at the call of his name by his husband to see the other man still clenching his eyes shut while his hands were clasping the sheets tightly. “Chunnie… I,I’m okay. Really!” He opened his eyes slightly at his husband’s unresponsiveness and tried to convince him again. “ I’ll be fine! You, you don’t need to stop…”
But how can Yoochun continue his act just to satisfy himself? The slight tremble of Junsu’s body as he tried to fight his body instinctive reaction was more than enough to douse the fire that had raged throughout his body just a few minutes ago. He preferred never to get any fulfillment than to force Junsu for his pleasure. What he had done before had been more than enough. And he would sooner to kill himself than repeating that barbaric act.
So he opted to shifted his body up to lie beside Junsu and gathered the smaller man into his arms instead. Planting soft kisses on his husband’s cheeks and forehead, he then forced Junsu who was clearly disappointed at his own body’s reaction to face him.
“Susu-yah…” It got no response as Junsu still stubbornly tried to curl into himself, deeply ashamed by his own cowardice. Looking at his husband’s attempt to ignore him, Yoochun decided to let him be and choose to hug the other man from behind instead. He leaned his forehead on Junsu’s back of head and whispered to him.
“It’s okay Su-yah… I’m okay… You can take as much time as you need…”
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Junsu bit back the tears of frustration that threatened to spill out from his eyes as he listened to his husband whispering comfort against his ears over and over again.
‘But it’s not okay! It’s not okay for me to be like this while you already been so wonderful…’
He couldn’t express how frustrated he was when his body betrayed him repeatedly. Yoochun had been infinitely patient while Junsu had grown more and more ashamed at his body’s response… despite Yoochun’s gentleness.
He wanted Yoochun to just ignore his body’s rejection. He knew that he wanted those hands on his skin; that lip on his chest, his stomach, his thighs, his… And he was sure that if he had experienced it, his body’s protest would be immediately put into rest. His mind wanted it, desperately, and now he only needed to silence his mind.
But he also knew that Yoochun would never force himself on him… not again. Not even when he was the one who wanted it. And it had drove him crazy…
And that’s what prompted him to come out with THE PLAN.
~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!
“Why?”
Jaejoong had looked at him suspiciously when Junsu had requested him to look after Na Young and Tae Hyun overnight that day. He sighed as he could even see the wheels inside his brother’s brain had started to turn to find the possible motivation behind the request.
“Hyung, just do it ok? I just need to have a talk with Chunnie,” Junsu said and handed Tae Hyun into his brother’s embrace.
“A talk? The Talk? Junsu-yah, did he do anything to you? Did he hurt you anywhere? That Park bastard I’m going to…”
“Hyuuuuuung,” Junsu couldn’t help but to whine with frustration as his brother launched into one of his Park-Yoochun-is-an-evil-bastard-and-I’m-going-to-annihilate-him speech. After all of this time Jaejoong was still hostile against his husband. “No, he didn’t do anything to me!!” ‘Even if I want him to do things to me…’
Although he still eyed his brother with suspicion, Jaejoong finally agreed to take his nephews back home and Junsu released a relieved breath.
Stage 1 completed.
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When Yoochun reached home that night, he immediately noticed that something was amiss. It was not hard to notice since the usually rowdy house was strangely silent that night.
Several awful scenario immediately popped into his mind. Did something happen to his children? Or Junsu? Or all of them? Did someone break into the house? Did…
But when he stepped into the house, all of those thoughts were swiftly replaced by the notion that he must have knocked his head somewhere and everything was currently inside his imagination.
Junsu, naked as the day he was born, was waiting for him in the living room. Spread out on the carpet with only several pillows accompanying him and keeping him warm, naked. Face and whole body flushed red and naked. And had he mentioned naked?
“J, Junsu-yah…” He swore that he had swallowed his tongue at the sight in front of him.
“Chunnie-yah…” Junsu lifted up his body from his position to face his flustered husband and he gulped at the sight of lust that was visible on Yoochun’s face.
“S,Su-ah… What, what are you doing?” Yoochun walked toward his husband and sat near Junsu as close as possible without him touching Junsu. He knew that if he touched him, all of his self control would be turned into dust.
Junsu cursed himself for thinking that it was a good idea. Well, he certainly got his husband all riled up and flustered by his act, but now he couldn’t even bring himself to start opening his mouth and seduce his husband so that he would lose all of his control and just…jumped him.
“su-ah?” His husband prompted again and leaned closer to Junsu whose body immediately tensed. Yoochun sighed and moved his body back immediately.
He felt that he could cry. The alcohol didn’t even help his body to unwind! It still stupidly tensed up whenever Yoochun was anywhere close to his bare skin and he knew that no matter he tried to seduce Yoochun now, his husband wouldn’t want to force himself at him.
“Su?” Now Yoochun panicked. His husband had started crying suddenly. He could only watch worriedly from the side as he didn’t want to send Junsu into hysterics if he tried to comfort him while he was still naked. After a few moments, he decided to run into the bedroom and grab a big blanket, then covered Junsu with it before hugging and comforting him.
“Junsu-yah…. What happened? Tell me?”
Junsu tried to answer… or at least to calm his frantic husband down… to explain that nothing was wrong, only himself and his body stupidity. But all that came out from his mouth was only a choking sound as he forced the words to come out from his throat.
In the end, Yoochun settled to rock the smaller man to calm him down in his arms. He didn’t know what happened, but he had some small guesses judging from the wine on the table, the sight of his naked husband welcoming him in the living room, and now, the crying man in his embrace.
“I…I…” after a few minutes filled with soft sobs and choking sounds, Junsu finally found his voice back. “I’m just so… angry about myself. I can’t even enjoy our time together… I want it but my stupid body just keep… rejecting you! I thought alcohol can…”
Yoochun’s heart cracked at his husband’s confession. He never thought that his advances had only pressurized Junsu to try to please him… the weight of guilt settled in his heart, and it was his turn to choke.
“Su-ah… I’m sorry… I don’t mean to ask you to…”
But he was shocked as Junsu suddenly spun with fury and grasped his shoulder tightly. “NO! stop feeling guilty! I want this, okay! I want you! Stop being so gentle to me!!!”
It was a proof how shocked Yoochun was that he didn’t even do anything as Junsu pushed him on the floor and started to kiss him ferociously. He was too over his head from the astonishment, from the pleasure that suddenly drowned him as Junsu decided to win over his body and finally took action.
But as he saw the smaller body shivered with tension as Junsu’s mind battled with his body, he decided that it was his turn to do something. Gently, so not to scare his already terrified husband more, he put his arms around the lithe body and softly pulled Junsu to lie on top of him.
He couldn’t lie that the feeling of Junsu’s bare skin, even against his clothed body, was overwhelming. But he forced that desire down and focus on his husband who was still looking at him apprehensively despite the action he had taken.
“Sssh.. “ He put his hand on Junsu’s back lightly, without any force to keep him in place. “Slow is okay… Take your time, Su-yah. I will be here for you… to do anything you want… just… enjoy yourself, okay?” He whispered gently and then he lied back down and surrendered himself to be taken into an unforgettable ride led by his husband.
If Junsu didn’t believe in karma before, he surely believed it now. As that night he finally reclaimed the pleasure from the very most thing that had been used to draw out the worst torture from his body, he wondered whether the happiness he experienced now was a payment from God for all of his suffering beforehand.
And afterwards, after they finally gathered their breath, Yoochun stood up slowly and gently carried his husband, who slumped bonelessly against his body, into his bedroom. He laid the exhausted man down on their bed and he quickly took some clothes to clean his husband tenderly.
“Mhmm… Chunnie?”
The delirious calling sound from the exhausted man prompted him to smile and immediately attended Junsu. “Yes, baby?”
Junsu forced his drooping eyes to open and looked at his husband who in turn, showered him with tender stare. “We… we finally did it, right? I…my body…” The unasked question was ringing clearly in Yoochun’s mind. I finally win the fight with my body right? I finally able to give my all to you…
Once again, Yoochun was reminded how he definitely didn’t deserve this angel presence in his life at all. He was the one who made Junsu’s life a living hell, taking away the control of his body that his husband even need to struggle just to enjoy a physical intimacy… but Junsu… never did he blame him… instead he tried over and over again to beat the trauma in his head… for what?
So that he could finally be able to give himself fully to Yoochun again… to make him happy… to satisfy his needs…
Yoochun smiled lovingly at his drowsy husband and planted a soft peck on his forehead. “Yes, Su-ah… And I can’t thank you enough for giving me such a great gift…” And he knew that he gave the right answer if the bright smile that blossomed on Junsu’s face was any indication.
And as he turned off the bed light beside him, pulling up the blanket and ensuring that his husband had been comfortably covered, and settling him inside his embrace, he didn’t forget to utter a small prayer of thanks to the divine being above for giving him such a lovely angel for him to keep and to cherish.
A/N The first promised drabble! This is for sheilapiglet as I wrote it for her request. I didn't write it in the first place but when she prompted me about this scene, i think that it might be quite good to write^^!