My Favourite Toy 11
Junsu had a favourite toy.
It was red, tiny and shiny. With a sharp silver blade that was ready to nick and prick your skin if you dared to touch it.
CHAPTER 11
“Yoochun-ah, do you like the food? I had the bath prepared for you already, you can go there straight away after you finished eating,”
Yoochun looked at his smiling husband and the elaborated food in front of him and proceeded to plaster a forced smile on his own face. “Ah, thank you Junsu-yah. You really don’t have to cook my favorite food every day, you know…”
And the moment he had said that, he instantly regretted those words. In front of him, Junsu looked like someone had taken away his favorite toy (well, Yoochun did, figuratively speaking) and crushed it in front of him. But as soon as it had appeared, it was quickly replaced by his usual smile.
He really really started to hate that smile with all of his might.
“Ah… I understand. I’m sorry, Yoochun-ah. Are you bored eating them? I will change the menu tomorrow. Or do you want me to cook another food right away? I can prepare them while you bathe…”
The slightly older man bit back the urge to just throw his food and smash the plate in frustration. It seemed that after that ‘episode’, Junsu had not changed at all.
‘Well, he changed alright… Now it feels like I’m married to a slave instead of a man” Yoochun thought bitterly.
If before Junsu was completely pliant and obedient, now he treated Yoochun as if he were a God. It’s almost like he was terrified that any small mistake that he made would displease his husband and send him running back to Jaejoong any second.
Which, the other man thought guiltily, had become a more and more appealing option with every second ticking by.
He tried to stop himself from comparing Junsu with Jaejoong. It was just not fair for the other man. And he also tried to cut him some slack. After all, Junsu was still… not right in the head, and it was Yoochun’s responsibility to help him recover.
However 3 months later, he had gotten more and more frustrated with Junsu’s lack of improvement. Instead of his bright, shining personality surfacing, his husband had instead immersed himself in the role of a submissive slave.
And in times like this, he found himself missing Jaejoong’s fierceness, playfulness, touches, confidence... ‘Especially on bed,’ he pondered guiltily.
He had even lost his desire to make love to Junsu. Honestly speaking, he felt like a rapist whenever he tried to sleep with his own husband, with Junsu lying submissively on the bed with eyes closed and trying to stifle any sounds he made.
He had stopped trying after several attempts.
Now it was getting harder and harder to keep the façade of a loving patient husband to Junsu. But he knew that he couldn’t let himself slip… not when he knows what the consequences would be.
Yoochun shuddered to even think of remembering the event that day.
“Ah, Yoochunnie, are you cold? Do you want me to turn off the air conditioner? The bath should be warm… you can go there straight away,” Apparently his husband had noticed even the slightest tremble Yoochun had.
In loss of words, short of yelling in frustration, Yoochun just nodded wordlessly and made his way to the bathroom immediately, not noticing the pain flashed in the younger man’s face with the cold treatment.
Gosh, he was really getting tired of his life.
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Junsu watched the retreating back of his husband with a dreadful feeling in his chest. He somehow knew that he had failed to please Yoochun again. The man had always had this look in his face, like he wished that he was far away from this place… from Junsu.
And he just knew the place that his husband longed to be the most.
In Kim Jaejoong’s arms
And he wondered why Yoochun is still stubbornly staying with him… after all he was a failure. He couldn’t even make his parents proud of him… and apparently Yoochun was going to join the list of people he had disappointed, sooner or later.
At this rate, Junsu was sure that it was going to be sooner.
What should I do, Yoochun-ah? What can I do to make you love me like before?
The brunette took a deep breath and squashed the desire to look for his toys and went to clear the dining table instead.
I already have Yoochun. And it is enough. It must be enough.
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A/N another hellish week is starting for me... For this week my cheer training will be from Mon to Fri, continuously without stop! I'm so going to dieee! and that means my only time to study is after the training which is 11 oclock at night. I'm so going to become a zombie this week...
And btw, I went to Shinee's showcase last Sunday... it was unplanned because it happened that the ticket was still sold... so me and shimvv bought and watched it. 35 SGD for a half an hour showcase... and it was pouring like mad T_T... I feel like I was scammed by SM T_T
Lastly, I screw up my midterms T_T... I'm so dead and will be so dead for the end of this semester... and this was a subject that I was confident of... (and now I 've got this tendency to find a favourite toy for myself T_T damn it *depressed mode*)
So yeah, enjoy this chapter and don't forget to comment! It would really cheer me up!!
It was red, tiny and shiny. With a sharp silver blade that was ready to nick and prick your skin if you dared to touch it.
CHAPTER 11
“Yoochun-ah, do you like the food? I had the bath prepared for you already, you can go there straight away after you finished eating,”
Yoochun looked at his smiling husband and the elaborated food in front of him and proceeded to plaster a forced smile on his own face. “Ah, thank you Junsu-yah. You really don’t have to cook my favorite food every day, you know…”
And the moment he had said that, he instantly regretted those words. In front of him, Junsu looked like someone had taken away his favorite toy (well, Yoochun did, figuratively speaking) and crushed it in front of him. But as soon as it had appeared, it was quickly replaced by his usual smile.
He really really started to hate that smile with all of his might.
“Ah… I understand. I’m sorry, Yoochun-ah. Are you bored eating them? I will change the menu tomorrow. Or do you want me to cook another food right away? I can prepare them while you bathe…”
The slightly older man bit back the urge to just throw his food and smash the plate in frustration. It seemed that after that ‘episode’, Junsu had not changed at all.
‘Well, he changed alright… Now it feels like I’m married to a slave instead of a man” Yoochun thought bitterly.
If before Junsu was completely pliant and obedient, now he treated Yoochun as if he were a God. It’s almost like he was terrified that any small mistake that he made would displease his husband and send him running back to Jaejoong any second.
Which, the other man thought guiltily, had become a more and more appealing option with every second ticking by.
He tried to stop himself from comparing Junsu with Jaejoong. It was just not fair for the other man. And he also tried to cut him some slack. After all, Junsu was still… not right in the head, and it was Yoochun’s responsibility to help him recover.
However 3 months later, he had gotten more and more frustrated with Junsu’s lack of improvement. Instead of his bright, shining personality surfacing, his husband had instead immersed himself in the role of a submissive slave.
And in times like this, he found himself missing Jaejoong’s fierceness, playfulness, touches, confidence... ‘Especially on bed,’ he pondered guiltily.
He had even lost his desire to make love to Junsu. Honestly speaking, he felt like a rapist whenever he tried to sleep with his own husband, with Junsu lying submissively on the bed with eyes closed and trying to stifle any sounds he made.
He had stopped trying after several attempts.
Now it was getting harder and harder to keep the façade of a loving patient husband to Junsu. But he knew that he couldn’t let himself slip… not when he knows what the consequences would be.
Yoochun shuddered to even think of remembering the event that day.
“Ah, Yoochunnie, are you cold? Do you want me to turn off the air conditioner? The bath should be warm… you can go there straight away,” Apparently his husband had noticed even the slightest tremble Yoochun had.
In loss of words, short of yelling in frustration, Yoochun just nodded wordlessly and made his way to the bathroom immediately, not noticing the pain flashed in the younger man’s face with the cold treatment.
Gosh, he was really getting tired of his life.
~:~:~:~:~:~:
Junsu watched the retreating back of his husband with a dreadful feeling in his chest. He somehow knew that he had failed to please Yoochun again. The man had always had this look in his face, like he wished that he was far away from this place… from Junsu.
And he just knew the place that his husband longed to be the most.
In Kim Jaejoong’s arms
And he wondered why Yoochun is still stubbornly staying with him… after all he was a failure. He couldn’t even make his parents proud of him… and apparently Yoochun was going to join the list of people he had disappointed, sooner or later.
At this rate, Junsu was sure that it was going to be sooner.
What should I do, Yoochun-ah? What can I do to make you love me like before?
The brunette took a deep breath and squashed the desire to look for his toys and went to clear the dining table instead.
I already have Yoochun. And it is enough. It must be enough.
~:~:~:~:~:~:~
A/N another hellish week is starting for me... For this week my cheer training will be from Mon to Fri, continuously without stop! I'm so going to dieee! and that means my only time to study is after the training which is 11 oclock at night. I'm so going to become a zombie this week...
And btw, I went to Shinee's showcase last Sunday... it was unplanned because it happened that the ticket was still sold... so me and shimvv bought and watched it. 35 SGD for a half an hour showcase... and it was pouring like mad T_T... I feel like I was scammed by SM T_T
Lastly, I screw up my midterms T_T... I'm so dead and will be so dead for the end of this semester... and this was a subject that I was confident of... (and now I 've got this tendency to find a favourite toy for myself T_T damn it *depressed mode*)
So yeah, enjoy this chapter and don't forget to comment! It would really cheer me up!!