the road keeps on calling me

[hidemysuicide]

i havnt written in a while, a nd i thought i would have something to say, but i dont. im still sleepwalking through life, not really noticing much. getting angrier and angrier and taking it out on my boyfriend. thats not to say he doesnt always deserve it though. because there are certain things i need that he just is too stubborn to deliver on. oh

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[mediacrisis]

cigarettes and McDonalds?

[hidemysuicide]

no money for smokes or mcd's and no way to get to mcd's. :(

[mediacrisis]

well, next time youre down, call me.

[hidemysuicide]

well once i move home for good (thats right im moving back home to go to TEACH (as in the hairschool not actual teaching. lol)) i'll ... be home for good. hopefully i'm getting a job at fox hopyard and if i get my lisence i'll be picking up a second job somewhere.

i dunno. i'll be home mid may i think.

Liz

[funkyfairy23]

well writing it all down helps me, but obviously you are kind of already doing that?
you know what i've found is really nice? working with powertools.
sanding and carving and chisling and drilling away at wood is great for frustration, plus at the end you've hopefully made something. So you're productive as well as destressed. youhave to take one woodworking class, then you can use the woodshop whenever its open, which is at some point everyday but the weekends now. But you can sign out tools. not exactly the most practical idea, but it works for me, as long as you dont mind sawdust :P

[hidemysuicide]

im taking a sculpture class on saturdays as a way to boost credits and do something hands on, and not just sit around in the classroom being bored.

but im not sure i'll be able to do the woodcarving since i am most likely going to be dropping out to do hair.

Liz