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hier

(10) &here I go

Jan 19, 2004 21:14

i feel like i try too hard at this thing. in the end it all backfires and i end up with some nonsensical journal entry that vaguely resembles the scrawls of a....blithering idiot. i've been reading random people's journals. it always fills me with an absurd feeling--hope. if i find someone whose words that i find intriguing in some way, somehow, i ( Read more... )

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unraveled January 19 2004, 20:31:15 UTC

"if i find someone whose words that i find intriguing in some way, somehow, i piece together the friendship that could be. &then, i close the page. those are the best ones, the undemanding ones."

God, you have no idea how much I can relate to that. I do exactly the same thing, floating by random journals and sinking into a person's words, imagining what it would be like to be friends with that person, in their world.

hier January 20 2004, 18:44:18 UTC

Admittedly, I felt a little embarrassed to reveal that, but I am glad that someone can relate. I was afraid some might think of me a would-be stalker of sorts. I'm not, I'm just too much of a dreamer.

aethyrkitten January 19 2004, 21:45:32 UTC

Hey you... I'm always available for a shoulder to cry on, you know. You're not one of the constant whiners, so I can accomodate. ::hugs::

i remember when i was about 13 or so, my sister mentioned that my parents would eventually die.

One of my favorite lines in The Crow is Top Dollar's "Childhood ends the day you know you're going to die."

i suppose that it reminded me that nothing is eternal and everything changes. of course i already am aware of this, but so often i allow myself to look past it and expect events to change, but never people.Know the feelin'... but you make the best of any situation and it's about as much as anyone can do. It's hard to remember the times when things change for the best, and we usually tend to only remember when things change for the worse, and it's not a pleasant thing to have to deal with. It'd be nice if some things could always stay the same, but then that'd be fair, and fair is something that doesn't exist. Least not until people all collectively grow up, which probably won't ever happen ( ... )

hier January 20 2004, 18:50:14 UTC

It'd be nice if some things could always stay the same, but then that'd be fair, and fair is something that doesn't exist.

I think that's the best thing anybody has ever said to me. Honest, simple, and oh so true. Thanks. I needed that.

aethyrkitten January 20 2004, 19:15:49 UTC

Anytime, liebschen. You know I love talkin' to ya.