arghh
more whining
Sometimes I don't really have anyone to talk to. I don't know I've stopped telling my friend my problems lest she adopts them as her own plus I've always felt this separation from her bc she hasn't experienced the same things I have. She can't really relate.
Also I've been doubting my religion of choice lately. I know I should ask people around me but maybe a leader of the church or something. I just feel like such a failure at it. I have a lot of questions but I don't want to hear the easy answer. I feel like I've already gone back and forth in my mind about it the "right" answers with my doubts. Now the right seem to contradict. All the people around me to talk to are religious and I know if I said anything they wouldn't really listen they would just give me the right answer instead of thinking about it and then getting back to me or something. I feel when I've asked for advice people don't really listen they just say what they're supposed to say not necessarily thinking about what I'm feeling and why I'm saying it.
I think I'll always have the same core beliefs but I don't know how to apply it to my life. I don't want to turn anyone away from God because of my doubt either. I'm such a hypocrite. I guess my main questions are about experiencing trials. I know that life's not perfect and I'm not asking that it should be but how I comforted myself with what God's word has said somehow blended and now seem to contadict. Where there were parallels principals that seemed to run side by side now the truths seem to intersect and not make any sense.
Sometimes I don't really have anyone to talk to. I don't know I've stopped telling my friend my problems lest she adopts them as her own plus I've always felt this separation from her bc she hasn't experienced the same things I have. She can't really relate.
Also I've been doubting my religion of choice lately. I know I should ask people around me but maybe a leader of the church or something. I just feel like such a failure at it. I have a lot of questions but I don't want to hear the easy answer. I feel like I've already gone back and forth in my mind about it the "right" answers with my doubts. Now the right seem to contradict. All the people around me to talk to are religious and I know if I said anything they wouldn't really listen they would just give me the right answer instead of thinking about it and then getting back to me or something. I feel when I've asked for advice people don't really listen they just say what they're supposed to say not necessarily thinking about what I'm feeling and why I'm saying it.
I think I'll always have the same core beliefs but I don't know how to apply it to my life. I don't want to turn anyone away from God because of my doubt either. I'm such a hypocrite. I guess my main questions are about experiencing trials. I know that life's not perfect and I'm not asking that it should be but how I comforted myself with what God's word has said somehow blended and now seem to contadict. Where there were parallels principals that seemed to run side by side now the truths seem to intersect and not make any sense.