I'm bummed out :(
I've been feeling really down the last couple of days. I don't know why. There's really no reason for me to feel so depressed and sad. Nothing bad or negative has happened. Work and school are both good. SO and I are better than ever though I don't see him as much as I'd like. Yesterday I felt so lonely I almost cried. It doesn't make sense.
Graduate school is taking up a lot of my time, and so is work, so I haven't been able to hang out with friends as much as I'd like. SO visits most weekends but whenever I have a free weekend I'm in NH visiting him so I haven't been around much. Some of my friends have complained that I don't make time for them and I've started to feel isolated from everyone.
Graduate school isn't hard per se, but you do have to put in the hours which is a major time suck. I can't really afford to cut back on my hours at work because SO and I are saving for our big trip so I'm not getting much free time to hang out. I've been really enjoying work though, this guy Jed's been put on my team and we just have a blast. It feels like we're just goofing off with small amounts of intermittent work woven in. Good times :) He seems to think all the bizarre shit I think, but shouldn't say out loud, are hilarious and it just makes the time fly.
I think it may be seasonal affective disorder, but that would be too convenient considering daylight saving time has just ended. I've also been spending too much time at a computer, which I'm sure isn't healthy. Yesterday, when I was feeling lonesome and depressing, I almost started buying crap off of Ebay to make myself feel better O_o. I think I may need to start exercising more regularly or something to try and raise my spirits. Boo.
On another note, I am feeling the urge to buy a new computer. My desktop died about a year ago and I've been using my laptop non-stop since then. The laptop is just over 2 years now, and even though it still runs great, I'd feel better knowing I had a backup. Plus it gives me an excuse to buy something expensive and possibly make myself happy for a few days. It's weird how spending money makes me happy :) I was also considering a netbook, but even though they are cute and fun, I don't think something that small would be useful in the long run so I think I am better off getting a desktop computer. I think at this point buying anything would put a smile on my face temporarily...
Graduate school is taking up a lot of my time, and so is work, so I haven't been able to hang out with friends as much as I'd like. SO visits most weekends but whenever I have a free weekend I'm in NH visiting him so I haven't been around much. Some of my friends have complained that I don't make time for them and I've started to feel isolated from everyone.
Graduate school isn't hard per se, but you do have to put in the hours which is a major time suck. I can't really afford to cut back on my hours at work because SO and I are saving for our big trip so I'm not getting much free time to hang out. I've been really enjoying work though, this guy Jed's been put on my team and we just have a blast. It feels like we're just goofing off with small amounts of intermittent work woven in. Good times :) He seems to think all the bizarre shit I think, but shouldn't say out loud, are hilarious and it just makes the time fly.
I think it may be seasonal affective disorder, but that would be too convenient considering daylight saving time has just ended. I've also been spending too much time at a computer, which I'm sure isn't healthy. Yesterday, when I was feeling lonesome and depressing, I almost started buying crap off of Ebay to make myself feel better O_o. I think I may need to start exercising more regularly or something to try and raise my spirits. Boo.
On another note, I am feeling the urge to buy a new computer. My desktop died about a year ago and I've been using my laptop non-stop since then. The laptop is just over 2 years now, and even though it still runs great, I'd feel better knowing I had a backup. Plus it gives me an excuse to buy something expensive and possibly make myself happy for a few days. It's weird how spending money makes me happy :) I was also considering a netbook, but even though they are cute and fun, I don't think something that small would be useful in the long run so I think I am better off getting a desktop computer. I think at this point buying anything would put a smile on my face temporarily...