I thought I had finally figured it out. I thought that I had finally come up with exactly the right balance and it seemed I had! For four days I had no problems, then, suddenly, today (it was supposed to be done yesterday) I was writing and "BAM" pins and needles start stabbing my lower abdomen. owwwww. Now I'm back on my couch, downing pain- ( Read more... )

I've had bad luck with best friends in the past. I've been used, treated like shit, abandoned, ignored. Over the years these experiences took a horrible tole on my personality. I began to avoid getting into a best friend relationship, and when I did become close with someone they weren't close with me but the person who I thought they wanted me to ( Read more... )

Here I am again. This time is just a bit after 7:30 a.m. and I'm tired. I can't sleep though because if I go to sleep now, I won't be able to get up again until like four or so in the afternoon and we have to check out at eleven so we can begin the long journey home. I can't wait! Eight hours with nothing to do BUT sleep. What could be better for ( Read more... )

Here I am. It's nearly three in the morning and I'm sitting in a somewhat uncomfortable, red easy chair, a down pillow supporting my back and an overly large one protecting my legs from the heat of my brother's computer. I can't sleep, not because I am not tired but because I am sharing a hotel room with my parents and my brother. My parents--my ( Read more... )

Ever since last fall I have wanted to go to college. First I was going to start this spring/winter, but when I went to England I thought that I had missed the day, plus, in the end, I wasn't ready. Now I know that I will be ready to go in the fall, however, I have to make a choice. I want to start college because I want to meet people, I want to ( Read more... )

A bunch of questions referring to 2007 ( Read more... )

Wow. So for the first time the fact that I have never had a boyfriend hit me in a completely different way. Before it was just for my sake. I don't have a boyfriend so I have never made-out with someone I loved, or went out on a date that just involved going for a long walk. It has prevented me from feeling the things that I need to feel, but these ( Read more... )

So, there's this sixteen-year-old Austrian named Micah who is the result of a one-nighter between my dad's co-worker and this other woman and apparently he's become too much of a handful for his mother so she is sending him to America to live with his dad. His father, a man named Jeremy, has never had to raise kids nor has his wife so he's been ( Read more... )

I was just sitting here in my room and I suddenly started remembering all these things we've done. I began to write them down when I realized that I should share them with you, because maybe they'll make at least a moment of your day a little better ( Read more... )

We claim we are best friends so I am going to be absolutely honest. I feel distance growing between us--maybe it is there simply because we are both working our asses off and so we never talk or see each other anymore, maybe I'm putting it there. The truth is I feel it and yet I feel no inclination to do anything about it. As I write these words I' ( Read more... )