And that's the way it is, isn't it? Always has been. Taking life by the horns, only to have the horns rammed through you. Sometimes I wonder what's to try for anymore, and I think about just saying goodnight. But there's this thing called optimism, and it's an annoying little bitch. Thanks to optimism, I and others get our hopes up time after time ( Read more... )

I put it back on now,
return it to its proper place.
No more exceptions.
The complexity of it all is too confusing.
And I am too tired now.
I die a little,
all to keep myself from dying completely.

This past Thursday was my two year anniversary with Alex. He came down to get me and we spent the weekend together. I was so glad. ^_^ Its almost hard to believe that we've made it this far, actually. Two years seems like a very long time, and part of me knows just how long it has been. Time has changed both of us, our relationship has shifted ( Read more... )

So I went and saw "You Can't Take It With You" this past weekend. And I must say, I enjoyed it quite a lot. Some of it had the expected Bever quirkiness in it, but overall it was hilarious as intended. And the set was awesome. Think "Rumors" set, except the walls went all the way to the ceiling and the bathroom was on the other side and was a ( Read more... )

Well, I feel like scum. I know I promised to stop trying to get him to come to Longwood. And I want to say that I'd be fine no matter where he went to college. But I can't. It's so hard being away from him. And since he's no good at talking any way except face-to-face, we have lost nearly all of the communication we once had. And since I've been ( Read more... )

Well, I gone and done it again. Of course, me being me, I just never learn from my own fucking mistakes. You'd think eventually I'd have some sense bashed into my head, but no. Not me. I have to be stubborn. I gave up theater because the drama of drama was suffocating me and my talent for it was mediocre at best. Not going anywhere ever. I finally ( Read more... )

Just thought I'd see what mine said...

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||| 30% Stability |||||||||||||| 56% Orderliness |||||||||||||||| 70% Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Interdependence |||||| 30% Intellectual |||||||||| 36% Mystical || 10% Artistic |||||||||||| 43% Religious ||||||||||||| ( Read more... )

((The opening theme for the latest season of Bleach. I thought it'd be fitting to post here, considering who introduced me to the series and the message it sends. English translation also included ( Read more... )

I feel kind of ridiculous these days. Alex is finally learning to talk more since he can't be here. And he's even saying/doing all of these romantic things. And I really like it. Unfortunately, I miss him a lot so when he does particularly romantic things I usually end up crying. Like he linked me a youtube video of a song called "All Time Love". ( Read more... )

I've realized recently that I do a lot of complaining. I cry the injustices of the world and whine about the minimal troubles I have. I'm self-destructive rather than constructive of others. And while I'm so busy with the people in my life that have let me down, I miss out on appreciating the people that have never done anything but be good to me. ( Read more... )