Dreamscapes- a fanmix based on the fic
a fanmix inspired by the fanfiction Dreamscapes by camael-czarka
this fic was so beautiful and had tons of gorgeous imagery and as I was reading it several songs came to mind.
tracklist includes lyric choices and quotes from the fic:
Jimmy's eyes were open. He woke just like that, not noticing the transition between sleep and wakefulness. His mind was filled with a thousand images- the things he'd seen in his dreams. He jumped off his mattress, sitting down hard on Thomas's.
{ Don’t Wake Me Up | The Hush Sound }
we swam a sea of pretty sights and chandelier skies
I swore I could feel you breathe
it was all so real to me
the light had slipped through the window
the morning ripped you away
don’t wake me up
I am still dreaming of stories undone
unravel at the seams
don’t wake me up
death is misleading and when I fall asleep
I sleep with your ghost
Jimmy's eyes were open. He woke just like that, not noticing the transition between sleep and wakefulness. His mind was filled with a thousand images- the things he'd seen in his dreams. He jumped off his mattress, sitting down hard on Thomas's.
{ Don’t Wake Me Up | The Hush Sound }
we swam a sea of pretty sights and chandelier skies
I swore I could feel you breathe
it was all so real to me
the light had slipped through the window
the morning ripped you away
don’t wake me up
I am still dreaming of stories undone
unravel at the seams
don’t wake me up
death is misleading and when I fall asleep
I sleep with your ghost
"Jimmy," his voice was quiet and sad. "I can't do this. I can't go back. I can live a thousand lifetimes with you, here. I can have a future that I'll never have. I'll be happy."
{ What If You | Joshua Radin }
I wonder if you’d miss me when I’m gone
it’s come to this, release me
I’ll leave before the dawn
but for tonight I’ll stay here with you
yes for tonight, I’ll lay here with you
but when the sun hits your eyes through your window
there’ll be nothing you can do
“I can't help but worrying. It's my fault he ended up the way... the way he did."
{ Lean | Oh Land }
did you try to defend me when I was weak/
did you carry me when I was asleep
now you’re out on the bottomless sea
so it’s time for you to lean on me/
did you lie for me to keep me safe
did you bear with me when I misbehaved
far from here could you feel my fear
“This is just one night.And in the morning, I will wake up, and be alone. Because you don't want to face the hard parts."
{ Don’t Die In Me | Mirah }
all the times you felt so free
did you forget how much you once loved me
and if you want something back
all the things that got cracked/
so when you say what you want
that you need what you got
don’t forget to be kind to me
I don’t want you to die in me
"You've got to wake up, you can't keep living in dreams."
"Oh, I don't know. I like it here. No one to bother me, 'cept you." He smiled at Jimmy in the dark. "This is what I wanted, but it could never be like this, not for me."
"But it's not like this, this isn't real. You're just imagining all this." Jimmy watched a shooting star cross the sky, slower than in waking life.
"You are too." Thomas said, in a tone that sounded privately amused.
{ Asleep | The Smiths }
sing me to sleep
I don’t want to wake up on my own anymore
don’t feel bad for me I want you to know
deep in the cell of my heart I really want to go
there is another world, there is a better world
"The world is far crueler than my own mind."
{ Shut Up I Am Dreaming Of Places Where Lovers Have Wings | Sunset Rubdown }
we’ll be much younger than we remember
you’re on the distant shore
I stamp my feet down now do you hear knuckles on your door
do you understand what I’m fighting for
"And- what if this all just my dream?" The words sounded like they were hard to get out. "Suppose I wake up, and things are the same? I haven't got anything to live for."
{ Dead Hearts | Stars }
I could say it but you won’t believe me
you say you do but you don't deceive me
it’s hard to know you’re out there
it’s hard to know that you still care
"Because, love, what reason do I have to wake up, to come back to this-" he gestured to the windows, which were dark, like no one was inside. "-when I could travel the world with you, for the rest of my life?"
{ Love Out of Lust | Lykke Li }
rather die in your arms than die lonesome
rather die hard than die hollow
the higher that I climb the deeper I fall down
I’m running out of time so let’s dance while we’re waiting
we will live longer than I will
we will be better than I was
we can cross rivers with our will
we can do better than I can
Jimmy awoke. The sun was blearily making it's way into the sky. His shoulder hurt from sleeping on the wood floor. He sat up, anxious to see if Thomas had woken, too. He hadn't, though his face now looked peaceful in sleep. Jimmy recalled the sound of bullets hitting mud, the sick smell of smoke, a clear night under the stars. Thomas's voice next to his ear. His brow furrowed as he struggled to recall his dreams. Then, clear as a bell, he heard Thomas's words in his head. 'When the sun rises, remember me.'
{ Quiet As A Mouse | Margot & The Nuclear So and So’s }
when I woke my back was broke from lying on the floor
sunlight poured through all the cracks in my door
wake up you’ve got a lot of things to do
wake up the sun is rising without you
"I can't live like this anymore, Thomas. I can't live with you in your bloody coma. I can't work, I can't eat, I can't talk to anyone. Everyone in the house thinks I'm crazy. They abruptly stop talking when I enter a room. I can't do it anymore."
{ Mt.St.Helen’s | Mirah }
from the morning when I rise from my bed
til the evening when I lay my head in slumber
oh, the loss of you does wreck my days
leaves me with a violent hunger
I will never be free from you
Jimmy held on to his new found knowledge of their shared dreams. In fact, it seemed to preoccupy him at all hours of the day.
{ Blinding | Florence + The Machine }
seems that I have been held in some dreaming state
a tourist in the waking world, never quite awake
no kiss, no gentle word could wake me from this slumber
until I realized it was you who held me under
He blinked a few times, his eyes adjusting to the afternoon light. Thomas was motionless on his bed, his brow furrowed, his arms still by his sides. Jimmy let out a breath, feeling a sense of disappointment settle over him, like he'd almost expected him to be awake this time.
{ Dreaming With A Broken Heart | John Mayer }
when you’re dreaming with a broken heart
the waking up is the hardest part
you roll out of bed and down onto your knees
and for a moment you can hardly breathe
Thomas smiled at him, guileless. "Jimmy, I've never felt this way about anyone. No one has ever made me happy just by being alive before."
Jimmy paused. The earth finally seemed to have resumed it's orbit around the sun. "Then do it for me."
{ Song To The Siren | Tim Buckley }
long afloat on shipless oceans I did all my best to smile
‘til your singing eyes and fingers drew me loving to our isle
and you sang ‘sail to me, sail to me, let me enfold you
here I am, here I am, waiting to hold you’/
did I dream you dreamed about me?/
oh my heart shies from the sorrow
Jimmy kissed Thomas's face. Pinpricks of tears were pressing into the corners of his eyes. "I'm saying that I love you and that I am so, so very glad that you've finally woken up." He kissed the side of his head, his cheek again, the corner of his mouth, until it seemed that Thomas's eyes were filled with tears as well.
{ Awaken | Dario Marianelli }
instrumental
this fic was so beautiful and had tons of gorgeous imagery and as I was reading it several songs came to mind.
tracklist includes lyric choices and quotes from the fic:
Jimmy's eyes were open. He woke just like that, not noticing the transition between sleep and wakefulness. His mind was filled with a thousand images- the things he'd seen in his dreams. He jumped off his mattress, sitting down hard on Thomas's.
{ Don’t Wake Me Up | The Hush Sound }
we swam a sea of pretty sights and chandelier skies
I swore I could feel you breathe
it was all so real to me
the light had slipped through the window
the morning ripped you away
don’t wake me up
I am still dreaming of stories undone
unravel at the seams
don’t wake me up
death is misleading and when I fall asleep
I sleep with your ghost
Jimmy's eyes were open. He woke just like that, not noticing the transition between sleep and wakefulness. His mind was filled with a thousand images- the things he'd seen in his dreams. He jumped off his mattress, sitting down hard on Thomas's.
{ Don’t Wake Me Up | The Hush Sound }
we swam a sea of pretty sights and chandelier skies
I swore I could feel you breathe
it was all so real to me
the light had slipped through the window
the morning ripped you away
don’t wake me up
I am still dreaming of stories undone
unravel at the seams
don’t wake me up
death is misleading and when I fall asleep
I sleep with your ghost
"Jimmy," his voice was quiet and sad. "I can't do this. I can't go back. I can live a thousand lifetimes with you, here. I can have a future that I'll never have. I'll be happy."
{ What If You | Joshua Radin }
I wonder if you’d miss me when I’m gone
it’s come to this, release me
I’ll leave before the dawn
but for tonight I’ll stay here with you
yes for tonight, I’ll lay here with you
but when the sun hits your eyes through your window
there’ll be nothing you can do
“I can't help but worrying. It's my fault he ended up the way... the way he did."
{ Lean | Oh Land }
did you try to defend me when I was weak/
did you carry me when I was asleep
now you’re out on the bottomless sea
so it’s time for you to lean on me/
did you lie for me to keep me safe
did you bear with me when I misbehaved
far from here could you feel my fear
“This is just one night.And in the morning, I will wake up, and be alone. Because you don't want to face the hard parts."
{ Don’t Die In Me | Mirah }
all the times you felt so free
did you forget how much you once loved me
and if you want something back
all the things that got cracked/
so when you say what you want
that you need what you got
don’t forget to be kind to me
I don’t want you to die in me
"You've got to wake up, you can't keep living in dreams."
"Oh, I don't know. I like it here. No one to bother me, 'cept you." He smiled at Jimmy in the dark. "This is what I wanted, but it could never be like this, not for me."
"But it's not like this, this isn't real. You're just imagining all this." Jimmy watched a shooting star cross the sky, slower than in waking life.
"You are too." Thomas said, in a tone that sounded privately amused.
{ Asleep | The Smiths }
sing me to sleep
I don’t want to wake up on my own anymore
don’t feel bad for me I want you to know
deep in the cell of my heart I really want to go
there is another world, there is a better world
"The world is far crueler than my own mind."
{ Shut Up I Am Dreaming Of Places Where Lovers Have Wings | Sunset Rubdown }
we’ll be much younger than we remember
you’re on the distant shore
I stamp my feet down now do you hear knuckles on your door
do you understand what I’m fighting for
"And- what if this all just my dream?" The words sounded like they were hard to get out. "Suppose I wake up, and things are the same? I haven't got anything to live for."
{ Dead Hearts | Stars }
I could say it but you won’t believe me
you say you do but you don't deceive me
it’s hard to know you’re out there
it’s hard to know that you still care
"Because, love, what reason do I have to wake up, to come back to this-" he gestured to the windows, which were dark, like no one was inside. "-when I could travel the world with you, for the rest of my life?"
{ Love Out of Lust | Lykke Li }
rather die in your arms than die lonesome
rather die hard than die hollow
the higher that I climb the deeper I fall down
I’m running out of time so let’s dance while we’re waiting
we will live longer than I will
we will be better than I was
we can cross rivers with our will
we can do better than I can
Jimmy awoke. The sun was blearily making it's way into the sky. His shoulder hurt from sleeping on the wood floor. He sat up, anxious to see if Thomas had woken, too. He hadn't, though his face now looked peaceful in sleep. Jimmy recalled the sound of bullets hitting mud, the sick smell of smoke, a clear night under the stars. Thomas's voice next to his ear. His brow furrowed as he struggled to recall his dreams. Then, clear as a bell, he heard Thomas's words in his head. 'When the sun rises, remember me.'
{ Quiet As A Mouse | Margot & The Nuclear So and So’s }
when I woke my back was broke from lying on the floor
sunlight poured through all the cracks in my door
wake up you’ve got a lot of things to do
wake up the sun is rising without you
"I can't live like this anymore, Thomas. I can't live with you in your bloody coma. I can't work, I can't eat, I can't talk to anyone. Everyone in the house thinks I'm crazy. They abruptly stop talking when I enter a room. I can't do it anymore."
{ Mt.St.Helen’s | Mirah }
from the morning when I rise from my bed
til the evening when I lay my head in slumber
oh, the loss of you does wreck my days
leaves me with a violent hunger
I will never be free from you
Jimmy held on to his new found knowledge of their shared dreams. In fact, it seemed to preoccupy him at all hours of the day.
{ Blinding | Florence + The Machine }
seems that I have been held in some dreaming state
a tourist in the waking world, never quite awake
no kiss, no gentle word could wake me from this slumber
until I realized it was you who held me under
He blinked a few times, his eyes adjusting to the afternoon light. Thomas was motionless on his bed, his brow furrowed, his arms still by his sides. Jimmy let out a breath, feeling a sense of disappointment settle over him, like he'd almost expected him to be awake this time.
{ Dreaming With A Broken Heart | John Mayer }
when you’re dreaming with a broken heart
the waking up is the hardest part
you roll out of bed and down onto your knees
and for a moment you can hardly breathe
Thomas smiled at him, guileless. "Jimmy, I've never felt this way about anyone. No one has ever made me happy just by being alive before."
Jimmy paused. The earth finally seemed to have resumed it's orbit around the sun. "Then do it for me."
{ Song To The Siren | Tim Buckley }
long afloat on shipless oceans I did all my best to smile
‘til your singing eyes and fingers drew me loving to our isle
and you sang ‘sail to me, sail to me, let me enfold you
here I am, here I am, waiting to hold you’/
did I dream you dreamed about me?/
oh my heart shies from the sorrow
Jimmy kissed Thomas's face. Pinpricks of tears were pressing into the corners of his eyes. "I'm saying that I love you and that I am so, so very glad that you've finally woken up." He kissed the side of his head, his cheek again, the corner of his mouth, until it seemed that Thomas's eyes were filled with tears as well.
{ Awaken | Dario Marianelli }
instrumental