wish this head
wasn't exploding on a daily basis
that the doldrums were a viable location
that something more than a pretend tooth dollar beneath my pillow,
was letting me sleep earlier and dream harder
than maybe something I could work for
or from - or to -
instead of swimming on the reef
wish it was close enough for my hands to touch

Putting the crazy meds away for a bit ( Read more... )

Had an unbelievably perfect birthday. I set my mind up to enjoy the little things, and I was rewarded grandly :)

Hi,
I currently live with the owner of my flat and he has decided to rent it out, $600 p/w three bedroom on Vivian st.
I can either stay here and find two new flatties, or if someone is willing to take on a hilaire and her two cockatiels, I can move into a new place.

PM if interested.

Off the grid for a little while to a music festival.
Let the imagination batteries get re-charged!

I am so wiped out, exhausted, full of pain, tired. Not as bad as I have been before, but feeling like I need a holiday straight after having one ( Read more... )

i feel so dizzy and I don't know why, and it has been going on for two days
like flashes of about to pass out, that abate at the last second.
However it's not painful, it's just nice fuzzy and I want to drop down into the sink behind my eyes.
I'm hoping that my blood pressure hasn't even plummeted lower.
Goddam I'm the antithesis of modern diseases

Babies are the anti-alchemist, turning gold to poo!

they say that a life lived without any regrets is a life half lived ( Read more... )

it feels like I was waiting for 2009 to pass....
to stop all the crappiness and self indulgence.
let it fall away...
empty chrysalis
and start spreading my wings in 2010
patiently waiting for them to dry, before I can soar.