My moment of fandom zen
When my flist exploded this weekend in reactions to that finale of Doctor Who, I just reclined in my metaphorical recliner and watched the commotion. I didn't feel envy or anything over not being a part of such a far reaching fannish happening.
I'm seeing posts here and there about people getting ready to go to Portus. I do hope they have fun, as much fun as I had at the only con I've been to. But I'm not burning to go like I've been over most cons.
Maybe I have reached some kind of a fandon zen so to speak which I find hilarious because once I just had to know everything - I had to know who this or that was and I had to be on top of every fandom rumour. Now I let one of my best friends and the person with whom I "grew up with" in online fandom, run wild in fandoms I've no intention in entering because I don't care for the source material. I remember agonising over the fact she might be into the CSI fandom at one point and I was fretting over all the seasons I would have to watch. (BTW, why do American TV series have to have so many episodes per seasons? Or am I just being lazy?)
I've been on the look-out for a new fandom for a long while - not because I don't like the Harry Potter fandom anymore, it's just I'm allowing myself to be really picky. That's proved to be a luxury for me - not worrying about this or that fest and not feeling like I'm missing the boat when I'm not regularly reading fic. As for a new fandom, I haven't found anything I've wanted pursue further than to examine the source.
Now you might ask, dear reader, why do I don't face that fact that I'm fed up with fandom. The answer would be that I don't think I am, I'm just enjoying it differently. I find myself in the role of the onlooker - a very aware onlooker who knows how it feels - every squee and every woe. And since I put myself into that metaphorical recliner in the beginning of the entry, I might add another metaphor. If fandom was a swimming pool, I'm lounging poolside, occasionally dipping my toes in but I haven't been submerged for quite some time now and I'm just fine with that 'cause I'm still friends with so many I've met through fandom despite the fact fandom-wise we have gone our separate ways lone time ago. And I think that's what matters to me.
I'm seeing posts here and there about people getting ready to go to Portus. I do hope they have fun, as much fun as I had at the only con I've been to. But I'm not burning to go like I've been over most cons.
Maybe I have reached some kind of a fandon zen so to speak which I find hilarious because once I just had to know everything - I had to know who this or that was and I had to be on top of every fandom rumour. Now I let one of my best friends and the person with whom I "grew up with" in online fandom, run wild in fandoms I've no intention in entering because I don't care for the source material. I remember agonising over the fact she might be into the CSI fandom at one point and I was fretting over all the seasons I would have to watch. (BTW, why do American TV series have to have so many episodes per seasons? Or am I just being lazy?)
I've been on the look-out for a new fandom for a long while - not because I don't like the Harry Potter fandom anymore, it's just I'm allowing myself to be really picky. That's proved to be a luxury for me - not worrying about this or that fest and not feeling like I'm missing the boat when I'm not regularly reading fic. As for a new fandom, I haven't found anything I've wanted pursue further than to examine the source.
Now you might ask, dear reader, why do I don't face that fact that I'm fed up with fandom. The answer would be that I don't think I am, I'm just enjoying it differently. I find myself in the role of the onlooker - a very aware onlooker who knows how it feels - every squee and every woe. And since I put myself into that metaphorical recliner in the beginning of the entry, I might add another metaphor. If fandom was a swimming pool, I'm lounging poolside, occasionally dipping my toes in but I haven't been submerged for quite some time now and I'm just fine with that 'cause I'm still friends with so many I've met through fandom despite the fact fandom-wise we have gone our separate ways lone time ago. And I think that's what matters to me.