Comments | hilitesmmz: life sucks sometimes

hilitesmmz

life sucks sometimes

May 29, 2008 08:42

what a $hit day this is... but you know what I have honestly come really far... but it's when "stuff" comes up that it propels me back a year :((

Yesterday I heard Dr Joy say "anyone can be a lover, it takes someone special to be a spouse" I really thought about those words and was like ya - wow! Someone had an affair and there were three ( Read more... )

small set back

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hilitesmmz May 29 2008, 14:05:11 UTC

I just love your default picture :)

Thanks for the comment - it is hard. I lived and was obsessed on LJ at the beginning having no idea where to turn. I've been off it now, or I tend to go back and Reminice about that part of my husbands life. Now I'll post now and again just to put it on paper so to speak - a journal that my kids don't see.

I was reading a couple of your posts, and i've thought - what would I do if someone I didnt' want to know found my journal, and the answer is... I can't let embarrassment take me down - the reality is we're not geared to cope with an affair and no one can tell us the right or wrong way to heal.

I'm still in healing mode - but I'm so much stronger now. Before I was this week, stay at home mom educated but in the house really having no "me" - "me" exists now, and I'm learning to love her.

You are in a whirlwind romance, congratulations! I was young and don't regret it, but now that our sons 14,16,19 are growing, it is a bit to get back on track to us!

thanks again
robin

libragirl_77 May 29 2008, 17:44:53 UTC

Idle hands are the devil's playground. It sure is the truth ain't it? I find on days where I'm sitting around with no plans for the day is when my thoughts start to wander into unnecessary territory and by the time Justin gets home from work I'm a wreck and he has no idea what the problem is LOL

So is this person on LJ? (you mentioned her journal). You are in contact with her?

hilitesmmz May 30 2008, 03:03:19 UTC

yes, she was very public with postings and now I cant even remember how I found her. But believing my husband all these years - it was the best that 1. it never happened but 2. she helped me to cope - how queer does that sound ( ... )