anniversaries
Type your cut condo I even want to call it that - certainly not a happy one - but I guess in a way one that shows dedication
I just wrote my friend Meg a really long my space message - wasn't sure I should or if I should just butt out - but once I hit send - there was a "technical" error, so I guess that answered my question.
Meg is only 21 and a fabulous mom of Shawn who's going to be 11 months. So well adjusted, cute as a button. But here boyfriend and her knew each other only 7 months, got pregnant - toward the end engaged. But he had one son who is has issues with due to the other mom, or so he said.
But he cheated on Meg - he wasn't getting enough attention. Damn, I've heard that before - and it brought back so many memories, not pleasant! I found myself giving Meg advice on putting herself first, she's important, HE has to change and not her. Words I now live by.
Two years after I found out about the "affair"; not when it started. While it was taking place I was being your typical good mom, housewife, office worker, and sex "when he wanted it" naive as all hell. Though I could have walked away we had a history - HUGE. 24 years this past January and we'll be married 22 this August.
So we worked it through - that's how this journal came to be. I don't find it necessary to write it on paper, lose it have the kids find it etc., etc., .
But it's not easy. If he doesn't come home right away, I can check it just to make myself cry. He gave me the code to his phone, and he hates the computer. So I guess my trust is not 100% how could it be, but enough that I know I made the right decision.
Therapy, arguing, crying, separation all helped us get to this point. He's very jealous of my job at the arena and I run the adult men's league - sure we talk and it's a great social time out - I'm a hockey - a - holic, but I know where my loving needs to come from. Last night he woke up at around 12:30 and we "did it" he hugged and gently kissed me the other night, I was like a school girl. I try not to talk about "it" but admit there are ways I do toss it out there. He says all the time he lives with the guilt, I guess by keeping it out there I make him remember. They say you forget, I don't think so in the long term. Certainly you do for short periods.
The boys are so much older now we have so much more of "our" time, the ocean is our favorite. Sunne's 14 and gets sores the salt helps her. We've gone out to eat - the only thing missing is the bench seat so we can snuggle. The bucket seats just don't cut it.
The economy SUCKS! He has to work so very hard it makes me sad. We're picking up his dive computer today and I'm dropping off his tanks in a couple hours. He so loves to dive at nubble and I love to sit and watch him, fort foster is my favorite.
So May 18th is the day I found out he had been unfaithful - I wish I had a magic eraser. I guess what I learned was about my morals. "He cheated, ditch the loser" but love and sex are two very separate things. What he had with her was sex, what we share is love, memories, 3 wonderful sons, and making love - something I never thought we'd have after I found out. But Rob's so much more than his "penis" and who knows maybe in 5 years or even sooner, I will forget FULLY. But for now, I know I conscientiously am aware of this wonderful man, my life partner.
tents here.do I even want to call it that - certainly not a happy one - but I guess in a way one that shows dedication
I just wrote my friend Meg a really long my space message - wasn't sure I should or if I should just butt out - but once I hit send - there was a "technical" error, so I guess that answered my question.
Meg is only 21 and a fabulous mom of Shawn who's going to be 11 months. So well adjusted, cute as a button. But here boyfriend and her knew each other only 7 months, got pregnant - toward the end engaged. But he had one son who is has issues with due to the other mom, or so he said.
But he cheated on Meg - he wasn't getting enough attention. Damn, I've heard that before - and it brought back so many memories, not pleasant! I found myself giving Meg advice on putting herself first, she's important, HE has to change and not her. Words I now live by.
Two years after I found out about the "affair"; not when it started. While it was taking place I was being your typical good mom, housewife, office worker, and sex "when he wanted it" naive as all hell. Though I could have walked away we had a history - HUGE. 24 years this past January and we'll be married 22 this August.
So we worked it through - that's how this journal came to be. I don't find it necessary to write it on paper, lose it have the kids find it etc., etc., .
But it's not easy. If he doesn't come home right away, I can check it just to make myself cry. He gave me the code to his phone, and he hates the computer. So I guess my trust is not 100% how could it be, but enough that I know I made the right decision.
Therapy, arguing, crying, separation all helped us get to this point. He's very jealous of my job at the arena and I run the adult men's league - sure we talk and it's a great social time out - I'm a hockey - a - holic, but I know where my loving needs to come from. Last night he woke up at around 12:30 and we "did it" he hugged and gently kissed me the other night, I was like a school girl. I try not to talk about "it" but admit there are ways I do toss it out there. He says all the time he lives with the guilt, I guess by keeping it out there I make him remember. They say you forget, I don't think so in the long term. Certainly you do for short periods.
The boys are so much older now we have so much more of "our" time, the ocean is our favorite. Sunne's 14 and gets sores the salt helps her. We've gone out to eat - the only thing missing is the bench seat so we can snuggle. The bucket seats just don't cut it.
The economy SUCKS! He has to work so very hard it makes me sad. We're picking up his dive computer today and I'm dropping off his tanks in a couple hours. He so loves to dive at nubble and I love to sit and watch him, fort foster is my favorite.
So May 18th is the day I found out he had been unfaithful - I wish I had a magic eraser. I guess what I learned was about my morals. "He cheated, ditch the loser" but love and sex are two very separate things. What he had with her was sex, what we share is love, memories, 3 wonderful sons, and making love - something I never thought we'd have after I found out. But Rob's so much more than his "penis" and who knows maybe in 5 years or even sooner, I will forget FULLY. But for now, I know I conscientiously am aware of this wonderful man, my life partner.
Just got off the phone, we're going to the ocean after work and to cash his check brrrrrr
I just wrote my friend Meg a really long my space message - wasn't sure I should or if I should just butt out - but once I hit send - there was a "technical" error, so I guess that answered my question.
Meg is only 21 and a fabulous mom of Shawn who's going to be 11 months. So well adjusted, cute as a button. But here boyfriend and her knew each other only 7 months, got pregnant - toward the end engaged. But he had one son who is has issues with due to the other mom, or so he said.
But he cheated on Meg - he wasn't getting enough attention. Damn, I've heard that before - and it brought back so many memories, not pleasant! I found myself giving Meg advice on putting herself first, she's important, HE has to change and not her. Words I now live by.
Two years after I found out about the "affair"; not when it started. While it was taking place I was being your typical good mom, housewife, office worker, and sex "when he wanted it" naive as all hell. Though I could have walked away we had a history - HUGE. 24 years this past January and we'll be married 22 this August.
So we worked it through - that's how this journal came to be. I don't find it necessary to write it on paper, lose it have the kids find it etc., etc., .
But it's not easy. If he doesn't come home right away, I can check it just to make myself cry. He gave me the code to his phone, and he hates the computer. So I guess my trust is not 100% how could it be, but enough that I know I made the right decision.
Therapy, arguing, crying, separation all helped us get to this point. He's very jealous of my job at the arena and I run the adult men's league - sure we talk and it's a great social time out - I'm a hockey - a - holic, but I know where my loving needs to come from. Last night he woke up at around 12:30 and we "did it" he hugged and gently kissed me the other night, I was like a school girl. I try not to talk about "it" but admit there are ways I do toss it out there. He says all the time he lives with the guilt, I guess by keeping it out there I make him remember. They say you forget, I don't think so in the long term. Certainly you do for short periods.
The boys are so much older now we have so much more of "our" time, the ocean is our favorite. Sunne's 14 and gets sores the salt helps her. We've gone out to eat - the only thing missing is the bench seat so we can snuggle. The bucket seats just don't cut it.
The economy SUCKS! He has to work so very hard it makes me sad. We're picking up his dive computer today and I'm dropping off his tanks in a couple hours. He so loves to dive at nubble and I love to sit and watch him, fort foster is my favorite.
So May 18th is the day I found out he had been unfaithful - I wish I had a magic eraser. I guess what I learned was about my morals. "He cheated, ditch the loser" but love and sex are two very separate things. What he had with her was sex, what we share is love, memories, 3 wonderful sons, and making love - something I never thought we'd have after I found out. But Rob's so much more than his "penis" and who knows maybe in 5 years or even sooner, I will forget FULLY. But for now, I know I conscientiously am aware of this wonderful man, my life partner.
tents here.do I even want to call it that - certainly not a happy one - but I guess in a way one that shows dedication
I just wrote my friend Meg a really long my space message - wasn't sure I should or if I should just butt out - but once I hit send - there was a "technical" error, so I guess that answered my question.
Meg is only 21 and a fabulous mom of Shawn who's going to be 11 months. So well adjusted, cute as a button. But here boyfriend and her knew each other only 7 months, got pregnant - toward the end engaged. But he had one son who is has issues with due to the other mom, or so he said.
But he cheated on Meg - he wasn't getting enough attention. Damn, I've heard that before - and it brought back so many memories, not pleasant! I found myself giving Meg advice on putting herself first, she's important, HE has to change and not her. Words I now live by.
Two years after I found out about the "affair"; not when it started. While it was taking place I was being your typical good mom, housewife, office worker, and sex "when he wanted it" naive as all hell. Though I could have walked away we had a history - HUGE. 24 years this past January and we'll be married 22 this August.
So we worked it through - that's how this journal came to be. I don't find it necessary to write it on paper, lose it have the kids find it etc., etc., .
But it's not easy. If he doesn't come home right away, I can check it just to make myself cry. He gave me the code to his phone, and he hates the computer. So I guess my trust is not 100% how could it be, but enough that I know I made the right decision.
Therapy, arguing, crying, separation all helped us get to this point. He's very jealous of my job at the arena and I run the adult men's league - sure we talk and it's a great social time out - I'm a hockey - a - holic, but I know where my loving needs to come from. Last night he woke up at around 12:30 and we "did it" he hugged and gently kissed me the other night, I was like a school girl. I try not to talk about "it" but admit there are ways I do toss it out there. He says all the time he lives with the guilt, I guess by keeping it out there I make him remember. They say you forget, I don't think so in the long term. Certainly you do for short periods.
The boys are so much older now we have so much more of "our" time, the ocean is our favorite. Sunne's 14 and gets sores the salt helps her. We've gone out to eat - the only thing missing is the bench seat so we can snuggle. The bucket seats just don't cut it.
The economy SUCKS! He has to work so very hard it makes me sad. We're picking up his dive computer today and I'm dropping off his tanks in a couple hours. He so loves to dive at nubble and I love to sit and watch him, fort foster is my favorite.
So May 18th is the day I found out he had been unfaithful - I wish I had a magic eraser. I guess what I learned was about my morals. "He cheated, ditch the loser" but love and sex are two very separate things. What he had with her was sex, what we share is love, memories, 3 wonderful sons, and making love - something I never thought we'd have after I found out. But Rob's so much more than his "penis" and who knows maybe in 5 years or even sooner, I will forget FULLY. But for now, I know I conscientiously am aware of this wonderful man, my life partner.
Just got off the phone, we're going to the ocean after work and to cash his check brrrrrr