I. Hate. Love
I just got rejcted by the only guy I'd ever known who shared the same Romantic ideals as me, the same books... We're really close, but I fell for his charm, and his old-world gentlemanly ways... He didn't fall for me. Instead, I got the "I like you [as a friend], and I don't want to lead you on but I'm seeing someone" speech... He also told me that I was confident, oh, he doesn't understand that I was only confident around him becuase he put me at ease so much I wasn't afraid to be myself. It's been really bad. It only happened three days ago, but I'm supposed to be studying and I cannot focus on anything but the pain. I can't watch sappy films without my parents asking me what's wrong, and I'm sure as hell not going to tell them...
He hasn't seen me cry, yet, and I don't want him to..
Still, I suppose I'll be alright... He's still decided on being my plus one for a party in three days time, so I guess this means that my falling for him hasn't ruined our friendship...