On my face.

give me strength.

guide me through this year, please.
dont let me hurt the ones around me,
and help me to maintain my sanity.

its going to be a challenge.

tomorrow's agenda:
class at 7:45a
meeting with assistant coach at 10:20a
visit office for parking decal
pick up work applications for at least 8 places.
fill out work applications.

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Most of the time I really feel like I've fallen behind everyone else in some of the things I see as most important in life.

My ball and chain hold me back. Will I ever catch up??

Damn you for that.

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fuger.

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i wont make it next year.
theyre going to destroy me.
i cant bear the pressure.
ill crumble.
ill explode.
ill stumble

then fall, then ill curl up and do my best to pretend im not being trampled by it all.
i wont make it.

i need you.

i am not taking this well.

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