So Luc called me back as I was writing in my pen-and-paper journal about Dov in the garden. I told him that he should meet up with me as I was feeling lonely. We decided to meet in town. As I am walking out the door, the gardner starts talking to me again. Pantaléone D'Amore. Italian. In his 60's. He always has something to say about love and life ( Read more... )

I am not feeling so good. Started work again today after being in the summer course for 3 weeks. This whole Au Pair thing has radically changed my idea of what it is like to have children. I am now *afraid* of having children. For the moment. This does not mean that I will never want them.... But I am damned sure that I don't want them in the near ( Read more... )

Not feeling so hot. Had been planning on going to this huge party for the past week. But then I couldn't get anyone to go with me: Katrina never answered, Jan is with his parents, Oliver is in Germany.... I could meet up with Annie and Camille, but I don't know them very well. And there is Marsha, but she is going with other people...we had planned ( Read more... )

QUEL DRÔLE DE SOIR ( Read more... )

Bad news: I found out that I am on the waiting list for lodgement with the university. Even though I put in my request for October in June, there were people that requested in February. This means that I probably will not get it ( Read more... )

But last night I finally, a month after his original contact, met up with Dov. Dov is from Isreal, parents from Croatia and (?) France (?), so he is blonde, blue eyes with light skin. He holds the Isreali record for the 200 meter breast stroke and has competed in the Olympics. Gave up his professional swimming career in 2004 and became a banker. ( Read more... )

Saw Luc last night. He has now really lost his virginity to me. And I have suggested that we not see each other anymore. And he thinks that that might be a good idea anyway. He is sure that, even though he has a great time with me, I am not the girl that he wants to spend the rest of his life with. And every time that he is with me, he feels great ( Read more... )

Have no motivation to do anything today. Been in my running clothes for like 4 and a half hours and have not left the house. Luc got home last night and has not called. François has not called. Went out with Antonio, nuclear engineer at CERN, last night. It is great to talk to him. But I am not interested in romance and he is. I am not physically ( Read more... )

Went out to see THE BEST FIREWORKS DISPLAY I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE last night over Lake Geneva. Ended up meeting Swiss banker, oohhhhhhh sooooo sexy, François at about 1:30 in the morning at one of the free outdoor concerts that have been held at different locations on the side of the lake every night for the past 6 weeks during "La fête de ( Read more... )

Before I go on a rant about Cédric, I want to say that I am really kind of thinking about Luc, and I hesitate to say that I am missing him, because I don't want to fuel an emotion that is "inutile" and just doesn't feel good. but yes, he is at some kind of an occidental Bible camp in the Valais (big mountain range further north than me) and has ( Read more... )