I wish that I could stand up for myself against my friends.. Im so sick of having to defend my every move when self concious/insecure people pass judgment when they really should just stay the hell outta shit sometimes. I hate when people make fun of me for my faults because I dont do shit like that to my friends and I don't make them feel bad ( Read more... )

I've thought a lot about what I wanna do and a lot about who I am anymore. I think things are getting better but I still have mad issues with my body and with men in my life. I just wish for once something could be so simple, kinda like a first kiss.. innocent and pure... leave out all the bullshit that no one wants to deal with and just have it ( Read more... )

I made him cry ( Read more... )

Today was my 6th year anniversary of my accident where I broke my neck and almost died. Today I looked at myself long and hard in the mirror and just started crying. I really wish sometimes that I didnt have a messed up hand or a limp that shows what my own mistakes can do because then it gives people room to talk when they really cant. I dont ( Read more... )

I dont know what to do anymore. I seem to have few and really far between friends. Everyone thinks I'm an asshole now because I say what I think now. I actually stand up for myself instead of hiding in the corner like I used to and let people walk all over me like I used to. I am not going to beg or persist after someone if they dont want to be my ( Read more... )

Is it possible to see inside ones self and extract every single part of you that you hate- then realize that you've taken everything out of you except for your eyes. Thats what I feel I have done to my self lately.. I listen to everyones shit they say about me and how much of a bad person I am- I absorb it then implode, leaving only my self to pick ( Read more... )

I wish there was a way I could actually be happy. But I've realized there isnt.. there really just isnt a way for me to feel good about my self or to be at peace. I wish I could just run away.

Everything right now seems to be going to shit. Friends, my family, my school, and my life pretty much are on the same level right now- all too fucked up to believe. i just wish I could get in my car and just drive... disappear for a lil bit and then come back out when I am ready to.. not by anyone elses standards. Im definatly sick of people ( Read more... )

I think that I have made some progress in my life with actually forgiving people and trying to move forward. I wish things could be better between some people and myself but I'm not going to force something if others dont want it or arent willing to work at it. Im sick of people talking about me all the time like Im the only one with problems. I ( Read more... )

I'm sick of caring anymore. I eat myself alive with compassion for everyone else. I wish time would just stand still so that I could actually breathe and live for myself instead of following everything everyone else says. I hate it when I fight with people that think they are soo much better than me when they aren't shit either. They're in the same ( Read more... )