eating feels gluttonous.

i am having a difficult day.

last night my childhood best friend and i took a community yoga class at ubuntu. first was kundalini with madhur-nain, then vinyasa with courtney, and last was restorative with sharon. have you ever chanted and meditated with 35 other people? it's exhilarating and energizing and it makes you buzz. rocking out to vinyasa, the most difficult yoga you ( Read more... )

today i want a husband.

i am looking forward to being patriotic and proud of my country, for i never have been. perhaps in the future when i see an american flag i will not cringe; i will not feel a prejudice of ugly, hateful, disgraceful connotation. let us use our power for good, not evil, from this day forward.

brandon and i have both been accepted to humboldt state. now our dreams can come true! this weekend was the happiest we've had in a long, long time. <3

revelations!

my dad and i are taking a road trip up to humboldt this weekend. i'm excited to drive and listen to music with him. i get to hang with calv and re-visit the campus and get myself extra revved up for next year. i'm so anxious for it to rain. i want dark days with lulling storms. i want tea parties on the floor and days on the couch consumed by a ( Read more... )

today is grey. it's trying to rain.

it's been a week of daily headaches, healthy eating, and realizations about myself and what i want to change and improve upon. the other day i was thrown into cold water when i told my boyfriend that i don't want to spend the rest of my life with him because it's unrealistic. i am a destructive person. i have a sharp tongue. i am a cold-hearted ( Read more... )