Memories...that I don't have.

[hippiegolucky]

I've been looking through a bunch of facebook friends' high school pictures, and it hit me again that I just didn't really matter to these people. Maybe a tear or two at my funeral, but really, I just didn't matter. No maliciousness--they just didn't care. And as time passes, I see that they still get together, and they still communicate, but no

Comments

[anonymous]

Hey
You matter to me. You were there singing with me at youth band practice. Remember the good ol days of youth band and youth group. I remember you would sit there and poke me to make me laugh. Your a great person because you never judged anyone and you are unique. Your a great friend! Dont ever for get that!
Rebecca

from someone who cares

[anonymous]

ok. lily. seriously. read what you wrote again, and really think about it. no one really matters to anyone, not the way that youre thinking. of course, family and MAYBE best friends matter to people. maybe. but not usually. at least not all the time. but honestly, everyone is self absorbed, and yeah, you didnt matter. but mostly no one did. so dont take it personally, because no one else is. people dont say things to you (and i dont really know, we werent ever incredibly good friends, i'm just an observer who thinks you need to hear this as a reality check) because you were never around. ever. and because people were afraid of you. when someone is that depressed, and that fucked up psychologically, its scary to be friends with them. or it could be that the way you talked to people a lot of the time sounded like you thought you were better than them. which is incredibly annoying. this is not cause for a new therapist. its cause for a get over yourself and make it better. you can do it, anyone can. you shouldnt take this note to be, "Oh