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It's to help you understand
I've been going through a bout of mild depression again. For no reason, or for no good reason, as usual. I always wonder why I had to be cursed with a mind that is constantly unsettled, never truly happy. I know my blessings. I know how amazingly fortunate I am to be born into the family I am in, to have a top education since I was a child, to have ( Read more... ) -
Convincing a stubborn soul
Yesterday, I received a job offer ( Read more... ) -
I give up, it's yours
I should go up to my room. I am sitting on my steps, outside of my house. I have pins and needles in my right foot for sitting down after my run without stretching. I have been sitting here for the last half an hour, I'm not quite sure doing what ( Read more... ) -
Happy Endings
I never liked the feeling I got after going through Atwood's writing. Somehow she gives me the impression that she is a doormat type of woman. There is just this peculiar sense of inferiority and resigned undertone that accompany her words. I can't decide whether what I feel towards her is empathy or antipathy.
In any case, I stumbled upon this ( Read more... ) -
Gain the world vs forfeit the soul
“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.
For whoever wants to save their life will lose it,
but
whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save it.
What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul?"
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My love, I know it's difficult
I really stand amazed at God's love. It is nothing like humanly love. It surpasses all understanding.Today I went for a run after... three (?} weeks of not running. I like my long runs. It is my alone time to think about life and about God. Tonight, I heard God tell me: My love, I know it's difficult.
I was always a questioning child. The intensity ( Read more... ) -
I got angry today
I think i have been very selfish this past year. I think I have been consistently considering my feelings before others. And instead of it making me feel better, it makes me feel bad. Unhappy. Disappointed. Unfulfilled.
I've been so fixated on progress and success that I'm not sure how to deviate. I'm not sure if ill be okay with slowing down for ( Read more... ) -
Today I am
Sitting at a Starbucks in staring into space. Or rather, staring at my screen and occasionally into space ( Read more... )
