Just spent a few hours down the pub with coworkers

[hiraetham]

And. The incredible distance between me and most people, and the loneliness that comes from it... it makes me want to kill myself. Everywhere I go, I feel like an extraterrestrial, and I'm tired. Oh god, I'm tired.

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[zizoo]

TU T'ES BOURRE LA GUEULE AVEC DES COLLEGUES DE BUREAU, MALHEUREUSE, FAUT JAMAIS FAIRE ÇA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Moi je t'aime et ch'te comprends, ma Vénusienne ♥ ♥ ♥

[hiraetham]

Je sais et tu me manques ;_;

[txlomin]

T'as posté lalala t'as posté <3 <3 <3

[hiraetham]

Oui mais là je peux pas m'éterniser, j'ai laissé ma soucoupe volante en double file

[txlomin]

J'ai fait des bugnes. Quand tu veux, tu viens. Y'a même la place pour la soucoupe.

[tombelaine]

Hé, moi aussi j'en veux, des bugnes !!!!!

[samaranth]

My dear, my love. I do know these feelings of 'Am I invisible? Do I not leave footprints like everyone else?' and how they can wear you down.

But you aren't alone, even though there is physical (not emotional) distance! Believe me.

[hiraetham]

Samaranth, you are a dear. I disappear for months and come back only to vent and then disappear again and yet you're still there to offer comfort, even though your own life isn't easy and I can't find time to comment on your posts. You are most generous and kind, and I'm very sorry I got you worried. Just knowing there are people like you out there makes up for a lot of shit. Thank you.

I'm okay, I'm just going through a serious case of culture shock. I've spent almost a year in the Alps, trying to make a living milking cows like I had always said I would, aaaaaaand... I didn't make it (la la la health problems, la la la property taxes...). So now I'm back to the city and white-collar jobs, and I had forgotten how all this makes me feel. Also, I was very drunk when I posted :P

It's good to have the internet - and you ! - again, though :)

And I'm not giving up on the cows.

[hiraetham]

...I said "even though your own life isn't easy", and that was before I read your posts about your brother, and you being the Memory Keeper of your family. You've been through so much lately, I'm glad you found support here, and that you seem to be taking all this as a call to live life to the fullest. And you are right about there being no emotional distance between us -- everything you say strikes a chord.

*hugs*