so idk what the hell is wrong with me. one minute i'm fine and the next i'm super sad. it's just the weirdest thing. it sucks and i feel SO alone and i can't tell neone here b/c i get an awkward feeling from ppl and it's horrible. i feel so distant from everyone and i hate it... i wanna fit in better and be happy like i was before. i just wish i ( Read more... )

i wish i felt like i fit in here. i always feel like i'm in the way somehow for everyone and like everyone has to put up with me and it totally sucks. i wanna belong again like i did in plattsburgh. i want ppl to like me. i mean, who doesn't want that? i really just feel left out here like all the time and it's absolutelyl HORRIBLE. oh well i guess ( Read more... )

i swear some ppl just have it out to piss me off lol

idk where to even start with this entry b/c i don't wanna tell ppl y i'm upset... i guess i just needed to write something in here cuz i can't do anything on my dumbass computer at home lol.

In the year 1635, a group of Wicomsee Native Americans travelled to Captain William Claiborne's trading post in Maryland. Members of the Susquehannock tribe, who were enemies of the Wicomsees, were also at this location. The Susquehannocks ridiculed the Wicomsees, and Claiborne's men found this amusing. In an act of retaliation, the Wicomsees later ( Read more... )

so tonight kyle and i had this long convo about everything that's going on in my life and he agrees that i'm growing up. a while ago, i did something that made kyle lose respect for me and tonight he told me i got it all back. i'm just really pleased with myself lately:)

so i had my heart ripped into a million pieces tonight. dan got back really late and he imed me and asked me to come see him. so i went to his room and he gave me a big hug and we hung out for a lil bit and he played guitar for me and he stopped in the middle of a song, looked at me, said why did you have to have bad timing or someth ing like that ( Read more... )

wow... i never thought that some of my closest friends (i'm not talking about my psu people) could forget me so easily. it makes me feel kinda empty. oh well. on the bright side, i think i'm gonna study forensic science and criminal pyschology and go back to psu starting in january. i mean, i can't really decide what i want to do. i know it would ( Read more... )

martini mix + vodka burns like a MOTHERFUCKER lmao last night was just sooooooooooo much fun!:) i got in at like midnight (well nick and i went out for pizza before), then sylvia and i went to carlos's room with whit and her bf and some other ppl and drank and played video games lol then at like 2 sylvia and i went back to her room and we ordered ( Read more... )

so i was just trying to log into myspace and the first time i entered my password and username, it told me the login was unsuccessful b/c my account has been blocked due to excessive failed attempts. so, either my computer is so fucked up that it did that or someone's trying to break into my myspace. oh well who fucking cares lol all i care about ( Read more... )