Comments | hisakatakeishi: Something that needs to be said...

hisakatakeishi

Something that needs to be said...

Jul 26, 2006 16:02

I never thought I would make a public post in this journal. But, after the call I just recieved, I thought I should get this out in the open. I'm hoping this doesn't turn into a rant- it really shouldn't because it didn't really surprise me to discover this ( Read more... )

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silmahelm July 26 2006, 22:03:20 UTC

I'm sure you know this based off what I emailed you about, but if not, I want to clarify something ( ... )

silmahelm July 26 2006, 22:10:39 UTC

Finally...I realize you never asked any of us to get involved, but fact is...we're friends. When you CHOOSE to talk to us about what your goin through. When we sit here and listen about, whether it be from you or Michelle or anyone else. Than at that point, you DO involve us...you make that choice, whether it's a concsious decision or not. You make the choice. Now...true that doesn't mean we always should put out two cents in, but hey...even we have our breaking points. And what kind of friends would be we be if we kept letting you do the same thing over and over and over and over again, with out saying something? No I don't think people should just up and abandon you. However, walk away, tell you, tough your own for now. You know what you need to do, so do it. Don't ask me for help...I'll listen, but I won't help. That's different, because as friends we won't really let you fall, we may let you get close to that fall, heck even force you to take that little step over, but in the end, you have to fall sometimes...and in the end we ( ... )

silmahelm July 26 2006, 22:12:46 UTC

Ehhh that was we should help those who are only willin to help themselves...not others. Oi.

hisakatakeishi July 27 2006, 00:47:31 UTC

My issue wasn't with you, or in regard to the fact that people are basically saying "fuck you" to me at this point... my issue is they've made assumptions (save a few) and have told Michelle to kick me to the curb because I "use her" and frankly speaking I don't use her anymore than anyone else has or she has me. People don't have to get involved. I write in my journal because it's my place to vent and let off steam. It doesn't mean ya'll have to read it=P I've never asked for any help- from anyone, and for the most part I have stood on my own- and ironically enough it was everyone's pushing me in the various directions that had me in such a state to begin with. My issue was the fact that people only looked at half the story, and then expected michelle to kick me aside (she was even shocked at that). Stepping back is one thing... tossing aside a four year friendship is another. I dunno... I think I was just shocked at how messed up people seem to be viewing friendship recently. I dunno... I'm too stressed out to be completely coherent ( ... )

lunawry July 26 2006, 23:59:10 UTC

*takes a deep breath ( ... )

hisakatakeishi July 27 2006, 00:56:28 UTC

*thwaps you... HARD!* You do -NOT- cut yourself! You do NOT think that way! I don't care if you don't want to call me, you damn well better, cause we all have to do things we don't want to do because we know it's best. I don't care what it takes I will get my ass over to you and if it comes down to it I -will- kick your ass to get your special knife away from you! I don't care how much shit I have on my plate, the last thing I want is to go to your freaking funeral because you accidently cut to deep! *beats you over the head with her notebook*

lunawry July 27 2006, 23:25:43 UTC

*ponders* You know... I have not been able to find my special knife in a long time. *sighs sadly* I need to get a new one. *eyes your throwing dagger* hmm...

lunawry July 26 2006, 23:59:21 UTC

And as much as it stings I know.... yes even Krystle has really been there for me lately, talking me out of doing something stupid, and helping prevent the apathy and bitterness and anger that would have otherwise ruined any chances of rebuilding our friendship. Strange that Krystle is to thank for that huh ( ... )

hisakatakeishi July 27 2006, 01:04:06 UTC

we should go to "marriage" counseling! lmao.

Anyway... well, I didn't have any trust issues with you until the whole artemis suicide thing... which I won't post here. Then the fact that Michael constantly drilled into my head you were a two faced bitch... doesn't really help the factor me. It's just easier to not put yourself out there, ya know? I am sorry though, and I guess that is an issue I really need to work on. Least Michaels gone now though^.^ Will make things alot less stressful as you said earlier...

We do need to hash things out really though- I just try not to cause I don't want any hurt feelings.... yours or mine=P

Anyway, I said I'd call when I was done reading so.... *calls*

lunawry July 27 2006, 23:28:48 UTC

Start making a list of things. In all seriousness, I need to do that as well. Perhaps this is something we can take step by step over some time rather then all at once over 'lunch' cause... well... that would be one hell of a long lunch. *sighs and shrugs*

ttyl?

MEOW!!!!

Luna